Resolutions

Last year was all about hopes, dreams, working my attribution to people who did not own up to me, and caring for other people that turned out to have no care for me at all. Though I have lost some who are unworthy of mere attention, I have gained a lot of friends that made each second of the day worthwhile. Though I may have lost some battles at times, I have won more of what I need as I realized that there is more to my life. This year, I am promising to live my life for myself. No more Miss Nice-Lady. No more Miss Kind and Stupid. It’s time to toughen up because I am coming close to completing some of the items in my life’s checklist, and I plan to add more.

No battle in life would I fear. This is my ode to this year; this would be ‘my time’. This is the time to redeem myself and by God I will see to everything that needs to fit. No more Miss Weakling, No more Miss Trusting. It’s time to stop dreaming and get on with the dirty work of breaking ground for new hopes and dreams, a life I almost lost view of having.

The year of the Tiger, the year for new visions, new conquests and more...

Quit asking Please

I always resented the instances where I am put in the position where I am compelled to explain myself. It wasn't my fault. I don't have to explain anything to anybody. If I don't want to do things, it's just that I don't want to...period. I don't want to be constantly bugged when I already said NO. When the reasons to my actions are already obvious, why should they still ask why do I act in such a way that is called for? why do they ask every change I make? Are they thinking that I am just saying No because I feel like it? argh! Well, that's just how everything's gonna be from now on.

I CAN'T BE THERE BECAUSE I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE ANYMORE. IT'S NOT MY PLACE ANYMORE. THEY ALLOWED SOME STUPID COW TO TAKE THAT FROM ME SO WHY STILL ASK HUH?

I am stripped of that privilege already, which pains me of course.

I regret having to say no to people whom I come to respect and love. But their relation to you-know-who makes me tremble in anger. Did they do anything? NO

So quit asking...please.

Twi-Fan

Just got a movie marathon treat last night. My boy and I enjoyed twilight saga 1 and 2 and I just slept with a smile on my face, I am definitely team Jacob. It just makes me feel normal and less of a selfless idiot that I was once. Like Jacob, I was there when all the trouble was around. I was there when everything seems hopeless and bleak; I was there cleaning up the mess. But when everything else was fixed and in order, I was left like a doormat. But Jacob does it with enthusiasm; I did it because of need. Maybe it isn’t love after all. Maybe it’s all about how I was raised to deal and face obligations and responsibilities.

On the other hand, Edward, "the one"...I don't know if he is just too selfish to think of his own convictions as he acts on them without even thinking on how it will hurt or ruin Bella. He seems to think of himself as "Mr. know-it-all" when he actually is not. While he says that he loves Bella, he seem to be that one person who have hurt her the most. It's funny, but love is not supposed to be that way right? But what I figured out is that when you love a person, you seem to give him all the access and all the power to give you the greatest hurt you can ever imagine. You simply give that person the power to 'make' you or 'break' you. Maybe that explains why people that love, real love that is, is all about sacrifices and enduring of all the hurt and difficulties come for all will be rewarded in time...but rewards in this matter is not guaranteed. Love does not guarantee anything, so the saying goes that love is a gamble.

Sometimes, I find it surprising that watching romantic movies like twilight make me reflect deep within myself. I sometimes find myself finding worthy explanations about certain things in life through movies. That is why if there ever was an addiction on watching movies, I will never dream of being cured from it. That is one guilty pleasure that I will never dare give up, not yet.

Home Project

Right before Christmas, my sister coaxed me to repaint our room...red! I was not so convinced with the color because I was thinking it might turn out like a 'fast-food' wall. As we grew tired of our orange palette, she thought of painting the walls red. You see, my sister just came back home and she is staying with us. We are practically room mates and so it was like high school once again. Being her persuasive self, she convinced me to step on the ladder and do one wall, and boy that was tough.

I now have a newfound respect to home painters and builders, the job was tough and back breaking. The muscles on my arms were tingling after finishing the entire wall and cabinets. But after seeing the results, I have realized that my sister really has a great vision. The red in our wall made our room kind of more chic and inviting. So after a tough day at school and long working hours as night, I will come to this beautiful room that resulted from both our handiwork.

Way to go sis! way to go ME!
writer, blogger, student, mother and ... home painter! hahahaha! Now I've got a new skill to boot.

People

I know it’s crazy but is it possible to like and hate a person at the same time? I mean at the same level? You see, this one person, I really like how he deals with people. I like how he talks … pretty much every conversation I had with him is interesting and memorable. I can run a list of quotes. I like how he conducts himself for I have been with him in events where you will be tested of your patience and tolerance of factors like hot rooms, crowded spaces, plenty of people chattering nonsense and pretty much drunken creatures. Everything was okay until he showed his ‘rough edges’. For the big part, I liked the naughtiness in it but I was kind of scared because it might just be a door to plenty more surprises that he chose not to display. But then, I like to discover more of that. It’s really fun to observe people. I will make this my mission these coming days and boy I will brace myself to whatever I might discover. After all, we can always be just ‘friends’.

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I know the picture has no relation with this post, but I find it interesting as this one creature I was talking about. LOL!

Canvas

I have read somewhere that life is a blank canvas. You draw its outline; dictate its theme and your decisions furnish it with the style and touches that will define its entirety. I would like to think that I am doing fine with all my decisions. After all, I am in a much better place than I was before. I am thankful for having survived the storm. Though the road was rough and ragged, leaving be worn, shattered and hateful about everything, I overcame my issues because I have realized that happiness and peace is a decision. So I have decided to be done with all the drama. I have decided to be at peace and leave the truth to run its course. Karma has not failed me for I was in a better place, while the other parties are left in the dark, unaware and confused of the implications of their acts, while I end up polished, stronger and much aware of what I can make out of my life. I am but halfway completing the outline of my life. Soon, I will start working on the palette that will bring color and life to its spaces.

What is Love...Now?

Love could be the most impossible feeling. It describes the most irrational emotion that cripples all the logic that you hold to explain your life. While it sometimes drive you to go against morality, it is sometimes decided upon, based on your feeling of need.

Love is every person’s need. Love, which is often mistaken for physical attachments as lust or need to be touched, is often a brand taken to make that step that goes against everything you believe is right and against everything that was once most important in your life in hope of finding solace for loneliness, for need or simply, for love.

Love is sometimes lost at some point in your life, either by choice or by chance. I do believe that even when love is lost, it still manages to stick around, it stays.

But what if a love that was true was betrayed? From what I know and what I have experienced, a love that is betrayed comes with deathly pain. It brings the most excruciating pain, both physically and emotionally. What’s more piercing is the thought that you were convinced that the one person who hurt you was ‘the one’, but proved to be a ‘sham’. But amidst the hate, love still remains to leave space to understand and to forgive. After all, you haven’t loved that one person without any reason at all. That reason, no matter how small and fragile it has become out of the betrayal, will find ways for forgiveness and the will to welcome another love.

Love, it comes and it goes. When love is lost, love is also gained. And once love is gained, it gives you more of what love has lost in your life. It fulfills the promise of future, a better companion, a better partner. If I am to face the question “what is love?” I’ll say it’s crazy, which makes it most beautiful.

Iron Man 2

Ready for some awesome movie trailer? Brace yourselves for Iron man 2 with the lovely ScarJo is coming to theaters soon. Watch this trailer.Enjoy!

Patron Tequila

I just happened to hear this song one afternoon in one of my jeepney rides and I was so taken because ... well, the lyrics was kind of real. Haha! Besides the profanity, I enjoyed the tune. So here is the live cover of Patron tequila by paradiso girls. hope you'll like it as much as I did! Just the kind of song I like to listen to when I am drowned with all these things I have to do ... pressure pressure and more pressure.

enjoy!

The world as is

It’s a harsh world and things are never meant to be easy. I guess I have said these words a million times. But just when you are down low and you have absolutely nothing, hardships attack you from all directions. With that, you are left battered, worn, hurt and wounded. But the thing is, you may end up slashed and bleeding but you still stand. Of all the battles, you still stand… I guess that’s what matters.

Silver Lining

Life really has its ups and downs. When you seem to get ‘down’, I mean really down, there’s no other way to go but ‘up’. Now that gives us one basic analogy of life. Let me tell you something…it happens! Feeling down? Not for long! Soon, you will see your ‘silver lining’…just as I did.

Be happy everyone! We all deserve to be. Believe it and you will live it.

Quote of the Day!

"If past behavior on someone elses part does not make sense to you, remember that is their own emotional junk and is no reflection on you."

Hi Handsome!

Hi everyone, I just went all out in fixing up my son's 'gala' outfit today. Since I got too carried away, I opted to take pictures of my handiwork. Boy I was surprised to see him working his poses...babies, they really grow up so fast...so here I am proudly presenting the 'little man' in my life!

Stuck at School

Our exam was canceled so I decided get started with work… here in school. The aircon is blasting icy cold air and everything is good. Thankfully I brought my jacket. Everything is comfortable so I decided to write and finish my daily article quota…with the quiet and all. What’s more fun? I am currently enjoying the free wifi/internet connection! Perhaps a nearby internet café have forgotten to set the restrictions on their wifi setup. So what am I to do? Make the most of these freebies. There are still more things to enjoy when you are stuck up at school. Even though I am getting too impatient to get everything done and settled with, I am surprised to still find my school life satisfying and ‘fun’.

I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh-err!

I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh-err! ha-ha-ha-ha!

This vid is really cute...just came accross this while I was doing my school research. Dara really has improved a lot...krung krung no more.

A 'Piece' of my Mind

In life, God will never give you everything you want. He will never give you anything that you are not entitled to have. Harsh as it may be, He loves us that way. God is all love, but he is not all about giving. He is all about making you suffer the hardest to make you realize what you already have, so you quit asking on the things you actually do not need or do not deserve to have. In this materialistic world, He will rip you of everything you hold dear. Everything. He puts you in situations where you will twist in anguish and cry in pain until you can’t bear anything more. He rips you of everything you value so you will realize the sense of your life, your purpose of living, and your purpose of being. He does these to make you realize that you don’t hold the sole control of your life.

Haven’t you noticed? No matter how you carefully plan your life, there is always a room for failure with minor slipups. With all your plans, you still mess up. He makes us realize that we don’t have all the power to make things happen in our lives. It is all in His hands. And whatever plan He may have for us, it’s all for the best.

Now that I am a parent, I now understand this message. Your child may rebel at your rules or at your convictions on house rules, but at the end of the day, your love for them will find a way to keep them straight in the line of light. No matter how your child may fight it, he needs to learn that there’s no other way to be on the place he wanted to be but through the life lessons you may teach him. Trials are like arming your child with everything he needs to survive. As much as God would like to spare us of the hurt and fear that we have in our lives, these feelings play crucial roles in teaching us, arming us, protecting us and bringing us closer to the place where God and we people will share a divine life, a full existence from which we are separated by our worldly sins and mistakes.

Clarity

With all of life’s confusions, you sometimes need to take a break to tame your wild imagination. Thinking for the worst sometimes bring more bad than good. No matter how you disagree, I believe that we need not find all the reasons or answers to the whys and hows of our life. There are things in life that we don’t understand, all because they are not meant to be understood at present time. In time, the questions in our life will eventually bring us valuable realizations about how we came to be, how much we have learned and how gracefully we have handled life so far. When everything else seems to not make sense, any sense at all, they will do in time. I don’t want to sound like a self righteous and overly hypocritical religious woman, I am never that. But I just wanted to share that one way of coping with life is setting all your questions free. Sometimes, when I find it difficult to find sense in everything that happens, I just leave it at that. I thought, I don’t hold all the answers, even in my own life. Maybe, someone else holds that answer for me. Maybe someone else will give me the key to knowing myself better, discovering more of what I am as a person. Or maybe, those who have hurt me already gave me the answer, but all these hate made all reasons unclear and more confusing. Or maybe, just maybe, all the answer is there but I just refused to see them in the light, afraid of what I am about to discover.

Enough

“When a man gives up, a woman can coax him to go on and change his mind, but when a woman says enough, that means the end…”

In all the interesting experiences in your life, you certainly have encountered situations where you are close to giving up or you are torn between giving up an going on. Life is defined by our choices. Sometimes, we choose to bear some more and still give chance to everything we face. At times, we simply say, “that’s it, I am done”.

But between men and women, contrary to the common belief, in things like this, women are never fickle minded. They are more resilient and even more flexible in terms of bearing with life’s situations. Amidst the hurt surrounding her relationship, physical or emotional, she may still decide to stand up for her man thinking that all is worth it. But while women have flexible tolerance, when they say enough, it means enough. You have reached her limits. No extensions and no other chances.

Suffering enough is enough chance given to any man to make up for everything he has done, for every wrong and every hurt. But once that chance it abused, there’s no turning back.

Speak up

In life, I have learned that no one else will stand up for you but yourself. In every battle, you better get yourself armed with courage to speak up for what you believe in and express everything that is bottled inside your heart and inside your mind. Sometimes, you contemplate on whether or not to speak for yourself because of fearing that telling the truth might hurt the ones you love. That is actually not the case. While you worry on hurting the ones you love, they are there rooting for you to do what you feel and see is right. That is because you are standing up for everything that you are. There’s nothing to be sorry about that. Everyone who loves you will understand the whys and whats of your actions, provided that they are within reason.

I am thankful that I am one person who realized the people who loves me for real. The people who embraced everything that I am are there in every step I take. Although sometimes, I feel like I am traveling the lonely and hostile roads of life alone, I have come to realize that they are actually everywhere. They are in my shadows, they are in my heart, and they are in my mind. Presence and actions may not speak of everything. It’s the thought that they will be there whenever you need to stand up for yourself, rooting for you to be a successful challenger of everything that comes your way.

To See an Angel Cry

See her there, see her crying thinking she loves him so
But she doesn't know how much it hurts me to hear her beg him not to go
If she were mine again, I'd never let the tears fill her eyes
But she doesn't know how much it hurts me to see an angel cry.

Once she built her world around me and like a fool I tore it down
And she begged me not to leave just the way she is doing now
Now she is begging to another with that same hurt in her eyes
But she doesn't know how much it hurts me to see an angel cry.

I didn't know how much I'd hurt her till I saw her here this way
I didn't realize how much she was broken seeing her falling apart this way
If she were mine I'd hold her forever and dry the tears from her eyes
But she doesn't know how much it hurts me to see an angel cry.

Happy Birthday to Moi!

I am thankful for all my experiences in the past year:

I am thankful for all the struggles and hardships I had in raising my son alone because through that, I have discovered more about myself in doing things that are way beyond my limits.

I am thankful for the people surrounding me for all the love and appreciation they have of me being their friend and family.

I am thankful for the job that kept me at my toes from night till dawn till noon to give me money to pay for all my needs, especially my son’s needs. Even if it drains my brain dry, it gives me so much to do, so much to improve and so much to value.

I am thankful for not having problem with money or health this year.

Thank you for my good grades in school, needless to say, it's the reward of all my sleepless nights.

I am thankful for whoever invented or created ‘The Bar’ for he gave me the finest Filipino booze to date.

I am thankful for Marlboro for continually keeping me company through those times I needed to think and analyze my life.

I am thankful for me ex jilting me with this ‘married nurse’ for making me crazy for the big part of the year with these strange combinations of emotions; dealing with those led me to people who made me realize that living a full life does not come with ‘excess baggage’.

I am thankful for you for reading this nonsense birthday entry.

Lastly, I am thankful for my son who, even did not say the right words or did not do all the right things, completed my life.

I know I will have more things to be thankful for. But it would take another year to make me complete another list.
‘till then.

Juzz feelin' dis song

ScarJo just looks ... tempting ... well, looks like I will be humming something like this sooner or later...tsk tsk! trouble in paradise... hahahaha!

let me just say, it would be wiser not to stick your fingers to something or someone you don't know anything about ...

knowledge is power... do I hear pathetic? who's pathetic now.
hahahaha!



better start over than live a lie...aye?

Shocking

I got news today. My friend told me that my ex and the girl he took after me are now going public with their romance. You know when you feel like you can face anything after learning the truth, confirmations like this can still rock you.

It actually shocked me that I am still honestly affected by the news. I never realized that shame and embarrassment can kill. I was kind of confused because it struck me like a big bus. I was practically stunned. Although my mind tells me that the information does not concern me, my heart was crushed. I was crushed. The funny thing is that I was expecting this. Yet, when it finally happened, I was still surprised. Emotions, sometimes I wish there was an antidote for they drive me crazy.

After a while of getting a blank eye in front of the mirror, I started to move. I stood up, stared at my eyes once more and I was blank. I expected tears but they never came. Bitterness still lingers in me but I know I am getting better. I no longer have those violent tendencies and the cursing series I had before. Feeling numb, I was surprised to find myself talking and saying that it’s good that they have already moved on and living the life. I never said I am happy for them, I am happy that he is blithely aware of how it is to feel to be on the other end. I don’t think he can handle this kind of pain…

So this made me reflect on my current state. I feel stronger, I feel more secure of my decisions. I may feel pain and uncertainty right now, but I will survive. I have weathered storms before in my life. This is but an interesting detail.After all, you get what you deserve in life right? Go figure.

La la Leo!

Last weekend, I was re-running the classic movie "Titanic" and realized how i have forgotted how handsome Leonardo di Caprio was...is!

Here is a rare picture of the handsome Leo...for our everyday's amusement.

Turning Tables

Just when everything seems to be fine and okay, a friend of mine asked me an advice on how will she ever go on since her boyfriend has also cheated her for another girl.

This was really interesting. I honestly don’t know what to say. How can I ever advise someone of a thing that is so difficult, so painful and so utterly disgusting to deal with? I can’t find words to describe how the first few days will be like hell. It would be like contemplating on strangling the necks of the basterds or simply get on with life in a more peaceful way. Or should I say, contemplating on pitying yourself or trying to be as angry as ever, like practically bringing hell as most people would say. No person deserves an experience like this. Nobody. That is for the simple reason that it doesn’t make anything right or that it does not make sense.

Either the other woman is great with sexual favors or in other talents, it’s not enough reason to leave a person hanging right there and be even expected to be faithful as one do such a disgusting act. A person who has been nothing but loyal and devoted certainly does not deserve that kind of treatment, which makes the cheater quite an ass… Thinking that these acts are premeditated, it’s just disgusting to discover a person whom you trusted would do a thing like that to you.

So instead, I offered her two options. It’s either to continue hoping and living with this guy thinking at the back of your mind that he can do that again and that he can hurt you again or a life that is open for other possibilities, including finding someone who will value you for what you truly are. At the beginning, it would be feeling like you got stabbed behind your back. Betrayal is never a good thing. Things will be hard, perhaps the hardest thing you will ever deal in your life. But the thing is, you’ll survive. The question is, when you have already moved on and he saw you are happy in the arms of a better man…can he survive that?

Tables are turned so soon…I feel that I am still not qualified to give an advice on this. But the thing is, I am happy with what I have become out of the experience…and happy with my “exploring life’s possibilities”. I know, she’ll get by…just as I did.

Forget Him

Forget his name
forget his face
forget his kiss
his warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember he has someone new
Forget them when they played you for a fool
Remember they were together all along
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has chosen her
forget how you memorized his walk
forget the way he used to talk
forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh forget his grin
Remember his sin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the years that went just that
forget the love that moved
forget he said he loved you, it's past
forget he said he's never to leave you
Forget he promised you a life
He has forgotten you, your son when he turned
Remember, he left you, he left everything
Remember he's gone with her.
If you were to blame, who knew?
Forget he even cared for you
For what he did has killed you anew
Forget the pain forget the two
For you got a chance with someone new
Forget him...
forget them...
forget and live again.

On dealing with mistakes

I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.

Feel the Love

"Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people are going to stay in your heart forever... even if you are gone in theirs."

Life goes on… and love? It will find you. It will find you when you are ready…again.

In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time, you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense.

Wendastarr's greatest weakness is ...

You rarely tell people about your accomplishments because you always think you could've done better. You are afraid someone will come along who is better than you and you often think about what you are doing wrong in a relationship, instead of what you are doing right. You are a loved person, but always think you need to continue doing something to stay loved. You rest in who you are around the right people, but the second they say something negative about you, even in a joking way, your heart is crushed. You wish you could be a better person, but it seems so hard. You are not good at working at things, but you want to be because you want things to work, especially relationships. You need love and you want to keep love when it comes, but you are always afraid you'll do something wrong. You want to be loved for who you are..

Still Life

I am sitting still...
I am staring at the blank screen contemplating on what to write or should I write anything at all.
'Times like this, I feel I needed to put my mind to rest for I have been putting it through a lot means of battery for a while.
Sometimes, I refuse to think, I wallow into nothingness, making me sit still, doing nothing, just breathing and doing nothing.
Staring back at the blank screen...I refuse to believe that everything needs to be blank. Splash some color in it, put some nonsense phrases on it...in a while, I may realize what I wanted to do or needed to do to make this page work...or not.
I still sit still, staring at the blank screen, with a smirk on my face, I started typing...and I typed in these words.
It may not work, it may not make sense. But it's how my mind works in nothingness.
I am lost of feeling. I am lost of care...or maybe this is just an effect of another gloomy day.

I'm Cool with NOW

Nothing last forever, someone special may come into our lives, love us and promise us the world, but the moment you turn they are gone. In the future, it’s really interesting to meet this person who caused all the hurt in your heart. The person who made you open your eyes to the reality that life is no fairy tale and that the ultimate thing you have to accept in life is that spoken words are not to be trusted and that love is just love. It’s just a brand you use to rationalize your reasons for being with someone special. But of course, the memories of good times will always be there. No one and nothing can erase that. It even makes such meeting thrilling and fortuitous. Sharing a part of our life with that special person is not something that you can simply erase because of all the bad things that have happened. As we shared our life with that special someone, we leave part of us with that person, which perhaps makes them difficult to let go. But as the world continue to move, life goes on and you will move on, explore new possibilities and find new love. So when the ‘meeting’ comes, all you will remember will be the nice marks of that same person you used to love and embrace life with.

The story of a life and everything that came after...

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life.

---This movie is definitely on my list!

Hawt New Moon Clip!!!

Can't wait!!!!!

The Love of a Good Woman

Maybe I am one of those writers who opt to write the content first before the title. However, coming across this title, “the love of a good woman”, I can’t help but feel sadness wash over me. I don’t know but perhaps because I see sadness in including the phrase ‘good woman’, whatever does it mean? What does it need or aim to prove.

“Every woman gets the exact love life, good or bad, that she wants.”

At first, my mind refused to believe this outlook. It hated it because it made me look like an idiot. I mean, do I choose to be stood up, thrashed and be played a fool? Is that it? Did I ever choose that? That even if I bleed myself to death to carry on and do my part, that it’s my choice that I end up failing?

But then, later on, I realized it has got a good point. Besides law of attraction, women in this culture is trained and raised to play the part of a doe-eyed loser in the game of love…she is trained to salvage what is already not savable, stick to a man that is not worth it, and feel mercilessly thrashed when left used and taken as a doormat that came in passing for a quick fix of a need. She is trained to be patient, be kind and all that bullshit. But never did this culture train any woman how to cope with being hurt and used. No one even stood up what happens to those who have been left behind. They end up thinking that they are used, that no one will ever take them after some men have trashed their dignity and name aside. They believe that they are not that eligible of simple compassion or even a fair chance at love. Though even under the circumstance, they did not cause any of the harm and disaster that befell their honor, they are still left and seen as the ones to blame. The fool who fell for the greatest fools of all, men who lacked the balls to be man enough for them.

Going back to the intriguing line, it made me realize that if a woman’s definition of entitlement is ending up with people who abuse them more and hurt them more for they believe that that’s what they deserve and that’s what they settle for, that’s what they get. Sometimes, we need to reevaluate ourselves and the things we settle for in this life. I may be a bitch but I owe it to myself to give it the best. The best of the best. Why? Who else will ever do that for me? My definition of best is not happy endings at love but a full life with a healthy personal relationship with my family, friends and especially my son. My best is leaving room for life’s inspirations, people who make me feel special and people that continuously believe in what I am and what I do…why? Because they are the only ones worth fighting for.

Every day is my happy ending. I give it my all. If the line says I have the exact love affair I have, maybe because this simple life is what I settle for, no room for failure and no more room for fools who threaten the simple joys I have with life. Love is just love. So is love affair. If it’ll come, it’ll come

" Best "

have you even been asked the question, what is your best?
At this point in your life, can you say when you were at your best?

My best is not amassing wealth or getting the most success among my peers and colleagues, it is the knowledge that my boss knows that I am giving my 200% in my work. My best is being recognized for what I do for I do them with all the passion in my heart. It is not the pride of posting my pictures at the backdrop of some exotic view, but my appreciation of my home, my simple domain, my simple life. My best is the acknowledgement of my teachers to all the papers I managed to pass amidst the chaos at work, at home and in my life. I feel that everyday, I am at my definition of “best”. That is because my best is not flaunting what I have, but flaunting what I don't have; my flaws and pains so people know me as a woman who lived, a woman who withstood hardships with her head held up high. After all, failure is not what people say the ‘falling’ down, but the ‘staying’ down.

End of the Semester

At last, after completing all the requirements of the first semester of this school year, I am free to do all the work I have left pending because of my exams. I never knew 5 months and 27 units can pass just like that. But then, it’s just a phase of life, difficult, challenging, brings quite a headache sometimes but it passes. It is bound to end as some time.

This semester, for me, is most challenging. Aside from being challenged by my professors, my personal life was challenged by fate. Though it is not my fault to be played with, I made sure that no one gets away with messing up my time. I know in time, everything will fall into their right places. But when I thought everything in my life was a mess, someone came and made be believe otherwise. I made friends with people I took for granted for the longest time. They were the ones who patiently made a deaf ear when I am starting with my vicious rants. They were the ones who helped me hack ___ accounts so I can find peace in running havoc to other people’s lives, ‘other people’ who made a mess out of me. I loved them dearly for helping me get through that trying portion of my semester. And after that, le wendastarr came back with a vengeance.

School and work, I’ve conquered all the drama to make it all work. This just convinced me that when I put my head into it, I can do it. 3 semesters more and I will be out of here. My son and I will be somewhere special, somewhere far from the past. Somewhere I can raise him without these people judging. Somewhere I can finally reunite with my God.

I vow to make things right. I vow to make everything right. I vow to my own happiness. I vow to be the best mom to my son… ending this semester only makes me a few steps closer to actually doing that.

Young?

" ... when you are young, you do stupid things ... you do things that you should not do... "

--- Barrack Obama

So the thing here is:

when you happened to do stupid things
and when you do things that you should not do
Does that mean you are YOUNG?
Does that mean that you are still YOUNG?

is this a valid argument?
fallacy perhaps!

Just had a Fun Party

At this point of my life, I find it comforting that I find smart conversations more titillating than any other activity in this world. It makes me play with words, and play with other people’s minds. It makes me questions everything that they believe in and their reasons for believing so. I find it a nice game. It’s a game where great minds meet. It presents a perfect opportunity to see beyond the layer of a person. That’s what makes that game more challenging. However, in this game, you have to give some to gain some. As much as you inquire on the thoughts of other people, you also have to share a piece of your own.

After having a quite fun and booze filled sem-ender party, I finally recovered. Then I recalled every little thing I did and said and seem to be proud of every one of it. I did not make a fool of anyone of myself, that’s for sure. But we all had a great time. Having fine conversations with few of the finest people I know is something I would not date pass up even if it would mean crawling through my way home. I did not exactly crawl because my oh-so good friend to me safely home. Thanks guys!

Law Abiding Citizen

This is for the folks who wanted serious action-thriller flicks. Law Abiding Citizen, which stars Jamie Fox and Gerard Butler (300), is one of the powerhouse cats movies to look out for this fall.

SYNOPSIS:

Clyde Shelton (Gerard Butler) is an upstanding family man whose wife and daughter are brutally murdered during a home invasion. When the killers are caught, Nick Rice (Jamie Foxx), a hotshot young Philadelphia prosecutor, is assigned to the case. Over his objections, Nick is forced by his boss to offer one of the suspects a light sentence in exchange for testifying against his accomplice.

Fast forward ten years. The man who got away with murder is found dead and Clyde Shelton coolly admits his guilt. Then he issues a warning to Nick: Either fix the flawed justice system that failed his family, or key players in the trial will die.

Soon Shelton follows through on his threats, orchestrating from his jail cell a string of spectacularly diabolical assassinations that can be neither predicted nor prevented. Philadelphia is gripped with fear as Shelton’s high-profile targets are slain one after another and the authorities are powerless to halt his reign of terror. Only Nick can stop the killing, and to do so he must outwit this brilliant sociopath in a harrowing contest of wills in which even the smallest misstep means death. With his own family now in Shelton’s crosshairs, Nick finds himself in a desperate race against time facing a deadly adversary who seems always to be one step ahead.

Source: imnotobsessed.com

click on this trailer...


AWESOME AYE?!

Just Another Single Parenting Dilemma

With only three exams to go, I am all ready to succumb to the fatigue that’s creeping up my spine. This semester is really tiring or trying. Enrolling 29 academics is no joke especially when you have a lot of other things to take care of. But the thing is, only three exams to go and I am done with this semester, fairly with enough honor.

This coming semester, I am planning to get a lot less load than I intend to. I realized, I am only meeting my son through Sundays. I just feel so guilty that no other person can convince him to study his lessons and at least try writing down ‘new’ letters, letters of the alphabet that is new to him, but me. Even with his teachers, he seldom tries. My dilemma is that I have school and I have my deadlines to deal with and I only have part of my Sundays with him. That is the only day that I am actually taking care of him, and still I am working during Sundays. I am all twisted inside that I can't do everything that I need to do, especially for my son. I am but only one person. It kills me that I can't do enough to make this situation work. It's just that I know what to do and how to do it, but sometimes my body exerts all its energy to exhaustion so it unfailingly gives up. And as I was thinking of how to do these and that, then I realized, what day do I set aside for taking care of ME? or even, do I take care of ME enough?

Life is really hard especially when you are a single parent. NO MONEY CAN COMPENSATE FOR THE HARDSHIPS AND THE WEIGHT OF RESPONSIBILITY THAT IS BESTOWED UPON THEM. Money is dispensable. Responsibility isn’t. You can always earn money, but when you turn back to your responsibilities, you simply lose your worth as a parent and as a person. Whatever your reason is for doing so, YOU ARE SIMPLY FULL OF SHIT!

Yes!

On my first attempt to participate in a debate...we won!

on the proposition to adopt the provisions of the Magna Carta for Students, our team managed to overwhelm our honorable competitors by... 1 percent on our average ratings.LOL!

what's fun in the activity was everything got lost in the middle of the discussion..with all the nervousness and self consciousness that's getting in the way, clouding our dispositions and command for our words, I say we pulled it off.

so what's the price of winning? EXEMPTION IN THE FINALS EXAM!

so there...I am just happy to pull this event off of my to-do list.

we were just so tired with all the research...well, should I say "I" was tired of doing all the research and in completing all the answers to our list of possible interpolation questions. Boy that's a relief!!!

I Don't Believe You

did you ever felt like this?

you guys went on a fight, then things got messed up and then you try to fix things up.

but then more arguments followed...even years of piled up and undiscussed/unresolved problems surfaced...more arguments went on...until you guys started throwing accusations and hurting words...and then you guys decided to end it all?

you will surely say, I don't want you here no more. I don't need you anymore. Go away. because you are hurting and seeing him/her go actually made you feel more twisted inside.

then you slept on these problems...you woke up one day and realize you still needed him/her because the love/lust is still there? and then no matter how harsh the words were thrown to keep you away, you just think about it and remember that you guys loved each other and no simple argument can quickly change that? that in any way, you are still hoping and willing to make things work...no matter how much pride you eat and throw in the air, it doesn't matter anymore because all you want is your love to come right back where it belongs...desperately begging it to come back.

as you wallow in self-loathing, self pity and in the uncertainty of the future, you get these thoughts that you can't get over him/her getting over you?

well this seems like the message of this ballad from PINK.

what a hell of a singer my idol is..

check this clip out!!! and let's all get mushy...

Fun with Life Starts Here

After being shelved in the cocoon due to my severed heart and pride, I started to live again. You can only guess where I have been, who I have been with and what I just did! Doing 'things' you never thought you can do is just one of this life's surprises.

Hahahaha!

Life is still fun!

I name this chapter of my life as...

"out with the old, in with the new"

after the storm...plants grow and flowers bloom...relationships die...relationships Are born.

No More CRY

I wanna feel just like before
Before the rain came in my door
Shook me up, turned me 'round
Made me cry 'til I would drown
Stole the daylight brought the nights
So much anger I would fight
Lost my youth, amid the blue

'Till I saw all my loneliness in you
Want to help you, give you love
Shine some light out from the mud
Fill the empty, find a rhyme
A brighter day, a better time
But I'm wondering where I'm gone
Can't find the truth within my mind
All I have I'll give to you
To let you know you're not alone

I'm telling you
Smiling for you only
I'm trying for you solely
I'm praying for you only
No more cry times
I want to hear my laugh again
Without the ache to bring you down
Everything will never be the same
Now that you took my pain
If it's true what people say
There still is beauty in each day

We find comfort in each other's strength
I'm not alone anymore
Here you are
with me...

YOU got me over HIM

I, I was a game he would play
He brought the clouds to my day
Then like a ray of light
You came my way one night
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
Don’t you know, don’t you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it’s true
There’s just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you’re all that he’s not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
Over him

No, don’t let him worry you so
Once I met you I let go
Oh you can surely see
You’re so much more to me
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You’re better than all the rest
Who do I love the best
Don’t you know, don’t you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it’s true
There’s just you

A Repost

"NEVER TAKE FOR GRANTED A PERSON WHO IS CLOSE TO YOUR HEART AND DOES EVERYTHING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY BECAUSE YOU MIGHT WAKE UP ONE DAY AND REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE LOST A "DIAMOND" WHILE YOU WERE TOO BUSY COLLECTING STONES."

---ANONYMOUS

The Brangelina Twins

Here is picture of Brangelina plus their twins; Knox and Vivienne, as they took a trip down to Licky Licious in Amman, Jordan for an ice cream treat.

My Thoughts

Better hurt and bleed than not breathe at all. Better suffer pain than being raped with fears. Better choke on tears than choke on restrictions. Better have a broken heart than have no heart at all. Better be guilty of something than to die ignorant because of cowardice. Better lick honey for one minute than hope for other people to settle your life. I have come to believe that there is no justice in this world, nothing is there to avenge us and to protect us, even in the last corner of our life, unless we take care of that business ourselves.

Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
Seems to me, we were meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die
We were never meant for forever, it’s a lie.
I didn't want us to burn out, so rules were never set
You came and went; I stayed with your mess
I didn't come into your life; you came to mine and for what?

So many times, you made me hate you but I dared not complain
Because I feared I would lost you if I do
You said you got the most respect for me
But why caused me tears and despair?
Still you walked away and left me wondering what made me do all that for you...

Looking at you made things easier
I know that you found another
Again, as always, I stayed with your mess
Nothing’s changed, nothing’s earned, nothing’s lost

I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
Because then I realized, all the love wasn't enough to grow fonder
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
As we take this road, somehow someone's gotta go
I want you to move on, so I'm already gone

It all started with a perfect kiss,
Even then, I felt the illusion set in
but perfect couldn't keep our love alive
You know that I loved you so, I LOVED you and I love you enough to let you go

Someone’s gotta give
Someone’s gotta go
This time, I’ll go
And who’s to give? I know…

The Blind Side

Now this is surreal! All of my favorites going on the same date! what a wonderful way to celebrate my birth date this year! Here's your first look at the newest flick of my biggest biggest hollywood idol, Sandra Bullock. Gosh! She really looks pretty in blonde! Yey! So excited~!



A poor, over-sized and under-educated teenager is recruited by a major college football program where he is groomed into an athletically and academically successful NFL prospect. Based on Michael Lewis' book, "The Blind Side: Evolution of a Game.

1...2...3! PaRtY!

Check out this new Britney song


Britney Spears - 3 Lyrics

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin’

Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it’s alright
What do you say?

Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?

Are – you in
Livin’ in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are – you in
I am countin’!

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin’

Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don’t see the harm
So are you game?

Lets’ make a team
Make ‘em say my name
Lovin’ the extreme
Now are you game?

Are – you in
Livin’ in sin is the new thing
Are – you in
I am countin’!

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***

What we do is innocent
Just for fun and nothin’ meant
If you don’t like the company
Let’s just do it you and me
You and me…
Or three….
Or four….
- On the floor!


Hahaha! Did you get the meaning of this new song? Interesting!

"I don't see the harm," Britney chirps. "Love in the extreme. Are you in?"

The music may help you make up your mind. It's a zippy little disco house ditty - nothing original but peppy at least and, like many of Brit's hits, maddeningly repetitive.

Me and my Son

Here's a picture of me and my son...Nah! just kidding.

I have always pictured myself walking on the street, enjoying that leisurely exercise with my son tagging along. I am one of those young mothers who just wanted to keep everything laidback and relaxed, like this picture of Angelina Jolie and Maddox Jolie-Pitt, taken today while they went grocery shopping near their home in France.

My son is everything to me, as all mothers would claim. To me, he really is. I just hope this love would not suffocate him. I would not want that...but maybe, I have to work on that right now. I tend to get really fussy with everything that concerns him. But maybe all mommies just do.

Can't Wait

jUST the kind of Birthday Gift I am looking for...Can't wait!!!

Work some more...Fix some more

No exams for me today. But for a working student like me, time ticks every second to do more work. No breaks, no ‘time to unwind’, time ticks and I have to value every second of it. I have so much pending work due to the 2 to 3-day interruption in my internet connection. Somehow, during those days, I was given more time to focus on studying and running through my lessons in school. Now that I am back online, I have to get started so I won’t have anything to be done during the weekends.

Argh! 3 semesters to go and I will be done with school. I am halfway there, which makes me more impatient.

So here’s the lesson for those who have messed up their teenage years and who made the wrong decisions during their college years…you got your entire 20s spent on making up for all those foolish things you have done. Fair enough!

I just hope to reap the fruits of my hard work in my 30s. Sigh!

Magsimula Ka

Magsimula ka, batiin ang
kay gandang umaga
Ng may ngiti sa iyong mga mata.
Sa pagkakaidlip, gumising na!
Ang buhay ay masaya.

Magsimula ka,
tuparinang pangarap mong tunay.
Habang ang lakas iyo pang taglay
Sa paghihintay, baka masanay.
Sayang naman ang buhay
mawawalan ng saysay

Iisa lang ang buhay mo,
kumilos ka, gamitin mo.
At kung may nais ang puso mo,
mangarap ka't abutin mo
Upang ito'y makamit mo
magsikap ka't simulan mo.

Magsimula ka,
pilitin ng tuklasin ang hanap
Magdanas man ng maraming hirap
Ang mithiin mo, pag naging ganap
Langit ng pagsisikap,
iyo nang malalasap.

Words to Quote

“Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like.”
- Will Smith

“Imagination is a quality given a man to compensate him for what he is not, and a sense of humour was provided to console him for what he is.”
- Oscar Wilde

“I love waking up in the morning not knowing where I'm gonna go or who I'm gonna meet. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge, and now here I am, on the grandest ship in the world, having champagne with you fine people.”
- Jack (Titanic)

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.”
- Anonymous

On Happy Endings

"I've stopped believing in happy endings. I've started believing in good days. At the end of my movie, there's honesty. There's truth. There's peace. What tomorrow will bring is still in question. There is a joy that's earned by failure or triumph. All those things add up to teach us, if we are open to it."
-DREW BARRYMORE

Though everyone might not agree, Drew is just one of the great Hollywood faces that actually have a brain. To me, she’s no plastic. She only gets dolled up when she is to promote a movie. When she is out with her friends, she is always photographed donning street fashion, which pretty much says, “To hell with what people think, I feel great!”

I really appreciate this quote from her. It’s really honest. The world has seen her stumble and go-down-spiral due to her drug addiction, but she came out beautifully as a great actress and movie producer. What the heck, she’s got all these personal problems and issues yet she is out there making romantic comedies, convincing people to put hope with love and life, ideals that she seem to be cynical about.

This is the person I should relate to. There's no point dreaming and hoping for what my happy ending would be like. All I know is that it comes with a great deal of work. If life is a book, this chapter of my life would be the "getting by" chapter...taking things slow just this time. In my own time, everything will be fine.

"...You Lack Effort"

One of my professors told me: “Wendy, they said magaling ka daw…sabi ko ewan…you lack effort kase.”

Honestly, I was not offended by the comment, but I was puzzled by what she meant. I admit that that Prof gave me my lowest grade in this semester for “Argumentation and Debate”. I was actually pissed because I really tried hard, given the time I have for studying and to comprehend all her instructions, I tried. I admit; that was not my best…because I have 8 more subjects to study right?

Every day, I have several roles to play and tasks to complete. First of all, I am single parent; I attend to my son’s needs in school, projects, tests, contributions, emergency checkups, all the works. Before I prepare my things, I have to lay down his uniform, socks, school bag, baon and the list goes on. Second, I am a daughter and a niece; I am the one who is asked to go for errands because I am the ‘able’ body in the house. Groceries, market, pension, all errand there is. I live with people ages 60 and up. I am a student; I come to class, which takes about 8 to 10 hours of my day, and fulfill all the requirements, pay my tuition fee on time, wear my uniform and ID promptly and all the works. Lastly, I work. I need to earn money to sustain my needs. I need to earn money to sustain my son’s medicines and all else that his father cannot suffice. This is all of me and that subject is just a tiny bit of my life. I do all these everyday and with all my might I do it at MY BEST because the fact that I can do them all, I made REAL EFFORT at that.

So I thought, people can easily judge people, but there is more of what they seem to be. There are underlying reasons why they act in such a manner that may not live up to your expectations or ideals. But the thing is; they put effort in life.

Here’s the thing, after a long night of completing the debate brief she gave us as a project, and missing my beauty sleep because I have a job to attend to my son who needs my attention in the morning and still have classes to go to, I get this remark…”YOU LACK EFFORT.”

Hells bells! Everyone is entitled to their opinion right?!

“It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes short again and again, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause, who at best knows achievement and who at the worst if he fails at least fails while daring greatly so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.”

Thought of Another Day

I just came across this interesting quote from a high school friend of mine and so I just wanted to share it with you.

"Everything that happens ONCE will never happen again, but everything that happens TWICE is more likely to happen AGAIN."

Hmmmm...

عيد الفطر ‘Īdu ul-Fiṭr

Eid al-Fitr marks the end of the fasting of Ramadan. This has to do with the communal aspects of the fast, which expresses many of the basic values of the Muslim community. Fasting is believed by some scholars to extol fundamental distinctions, lauding the power of the spiritual realm, while acknowledging the subordination of the physical realm.

Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiṭr means "to break fast"; and so the holiday symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period. It is celebrated after the end of the Islamic month of Ramadan, on the first day of Shawwal.

The Islamic tradition also associates events with the occasion. For example, on Eid al-Fitr, the angel Gabriel descended with white clothes for each of prophet Muhammad's grandsons.

To non-Muslim people, today is a day to break the stress, because today is an official non-working holiday. No school, but to me, it is still a work day...a mother has to earn some right. Haha! But is is a great day to bond with my son and just watch his cartoon programming. I bet we will be tuned to Playhouse Disney the whole day. and as for movies, our current pick is Pixar's "up". After having the movie seen for more than ten times, it seems to never get old. I am starting to memorize every line. LOL.

Life Starts Again

"If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again. "

stumbling at some point in life is not enough reason to be sad and lonely forever. there is always a chance to turn life around. and every time you take hold of that chance, what you don't realize is that you actually mark a new chapter in your life. every time you take a chance, you start fresh. though you may not succeed in all your attempts, you shouldn't see it as a personal failure. that is because the thing people call 'failure' is not the 'falling down' but the 'staying down'.

everyone may have heard lines like WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER DOOR OPENS. It even goes like WHEN THE DOORS CLOSE, THE WINDOWS OPEN...or something like that. but the thing is, in every door that closes, we can't help but get stuck on longingly hoping for it to open again. we tend to cast a long and regretful look on that door...that we fail to see the the ones that was opened just for us.

thought of the day

Patience...patience...patience!

"We don't need to rush things...if some things are bound to happen, it will happen no matter how we prevent it from happening...in the right time, with the right person...and for the BEST reasons."

People grow more and more impatient each day. When we can only pass through life only once, it is puzzling that people are in the habit of rushing things. They focus more on the wealth they wanted to acquire, the prestige they wanted to earn or in getting novelty objects, which do not necessarily bring essence to one's existence. They keep their eyes on the prize and not on the process of attaining that prize. But while people are kept at the 'process' for a significant portion of our lives, where we tend to suffer hardships and pain, who can can blame them of not wishing to fast forward and freeze into the time that their lives will be so much better?

Sometimes, we may even find ourselves frustrated of not getting the things we desperately wanted,"WANTED", and fail to take notice of and appreciate the things we have acquired along the way. Life has its own surprises. Sometimes, or most of the time, those things that we acquire along the way are way better and greater than the things we wanted to attain. Sometimes, the things we thought would be the best for us is not actually the 'best' that we can have.

So enjoy life and its little surprises. take things slow for everything will happen and fall into their right places at the right time and point of our lives. But for now, why don't we enjoy the ride? For when we get to our destination, we don't know if everything ends...or starts anew.

The Tunnel

Sometimes the present can become so dark as to cast a shadow. But shadows cast behind you and in front of you…it will remain and will always be part of your life. The present may be rough, hard and painful. It may probably extend to be a dark time up ahead, but I believe, this part of life is a tunnel, not a cave... There’s always a light at the end of it.

Your grief is momentary. Your pain is may be long-standing. But the thing is, it is bearable.

Right now, it's just important to surround yourself with Love, so you don't carry all the negativity on your shoulders.

Exercise a life that is separate from everything that have caused you pain. Prepare yourself to be strong enough to face the future on your own. As you work through your issues, keep looking forward. Chant encouraging words. Tell yourself that you are doing just fine and that will do much better each day.

Keep the Light On. Keep the light at the end of the tunnel…