Momma and Buboy in Laguna

We finally made our way to our vacay!

Only, we were unfortunate to have ridden a bus with busted AC. Everyone around us were puking because of the heat and dizziness caused by the heat contained inside the bus. It was only until we reached Lucena that the problem had been fixed. That was the only bus ride that I haven’t eaten nor drank anything because of the discomfort. I was worried I might give it a blow too. Thankfully, NJ seemed to be enjoying himself, watching mountains and mountains of coconut trees to pass by. He really was pleased with the trip and was behaved and was generally okay. It is already our day 3 in Laguna but I still did not get the hang of the discomfort that went with the trip. Anyhow, Buboy seems to be happy so far (he is enjoying the stacks of DVD that my sister has…well, I too!). It rains here a lot while in Bikol, it’s already summer HOT.

I haven’t started with any adventure yet…I still have some writing to do, which is an adventure I love more. This weekend, we plan to o on a picnic in Liliw, the shoe capital of Luzon! Hehehehe…and on Saturday, girl’s night out at the LB square. Gotta prepare something fancy for that!

For now, I need to work first so I won’t have to worry about anything this weekend…

Keeping my Fingers Crossed

I got my final grades today!

I was so pleased…I want to SCREAM…THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME THIS CHANCE!!!

So far…hmmm…keeping my fingers crossed…I am now eligible to apply for scholarship!!!…now I have got to tell my ‘sponsors’.

All the dawn-wakings are worth it!!!

All the sleepless hours are worth killing for!!!

I just feel damn good right now!!! Isn’t it obvious? I am breaking syntax rules on my usage of exclamation points!!! Hell, I am on the clouds right now…you know the feeling when you couldn’t contain your excitement because if you show it, you will appear insane and you see halo, twinkling stars and fairies altogether and your eyes brightening up your face?

This is insane!!!

as I've told you before...Single Mothers Rock!!!

Coming to Los Baños

My sister called me last night and invited me to come to Laguna for a vacation. Being the ‘spur of the moment’ gal that I am, I immediately said yes and went on planning everything the fun stuff that me and my son should bring to Laguna. I am so missing the buko pie that I used to neglect when I was living there. Also, I am missing the blue lambanog that me and my barkadas used to share. I missed the university I have spent four years on, my experiences in Los Baños will never be forgotten. For one thing, it is where I have spent my messed up years. While there are the glory days, the place also bears witness to my shame… It is an irony that I am looking forward to coming to the place, and of all reason, to spend vacation. I long walk down the sidewalks that I used to thread to and from attending classes. I missed going for the jeepney rides which took me from the engineering department to the humanities building, my favorite building in the university.

I am looking forward to bringing my son to the university and show him were Mama used to study. I will bring him to the famous Oblation and freedom park. With any luck, I may bump into some old friends and once again relieve the years when we were in plain jeans, shirt and slippers, messing up everything in our lives, sharing problems that used to mean the end of our world, and introduce them to the only person who managed to straightened me up, my son.

It’s actually a nice place. It gave me the opportunity to make something out of my life, it actually did. I learned so many valuable things in that place. It’s like an old friend. Coming back to Laguna will definitely be filled with hellos and more time to spend on my writing… my sister promised to do the babysitting, all she had was two beautiful daughters and was longing for a son, just the perfect diversion for my active and energetic NJ (wink wink!)

Follow up in the News

HERE IS THE NEWS ON THAT FATEFUL FRIDAY THE 13TH




AND HERE'S THE ROTTEN EXPLANATION BEHIND MR. FAJARDO'S DISPLAY OF 'GREATNESS'



HIS/HER PR COACH MUST HAVE BEEN A TEN-YEAR OLD CHILD...DON'T YOU THINK SO?

LISTEN UP all the BOYET FAJARDOS IN THIS COUNTRY!!!

“Who do you think you are?!!”

YEAH, you read it right sir. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?

To my generation, of ages approximately 20-25, a certain Mr. Boyet Fajardo wouldn’t ring a bell. A ‘masa’ like me would not even have any idea of who that person may be or what he does or whatever he is famous for. In further digging down information about this certain person, I have learned that his name must be something big in the Philippines RTW business. Quite an honor to be connected on his name, but the March 13, 2009 incident at the Duty Free Fiesta Mall is an eye opener to such egotistical person whom I could have adored rather than hated today.

Thanks to pep.ph, I have been told of a story that so many Filipinos probably heard, a scenario that may be too ordinary, the society may have been blinded by the bashes of people of ‘claimed’ status, who commands god-sized egos to expect to be worthy of some treatment that bespeaks RESPECT, and ultimately become a taboo.

Last Friday the 13th, a certain Boyet Fajardo, in his display of magnanimous ego and bratty nonsensical argument, have given a Duty Free employee his most lowly experience in life, he was forced to bend down and yield to this monster’s wish of being worshipped for his being ‘famous” and successful in life.

This is just a classic scenario on which common Filipinos exercise power to put push the weak and the poor in realizing their lowly existence. That’s what some Filipinos do to fellow Filipinos.

Not because you have attained power and success in your career in life, you are given the right to manipulate the fate of the people who stands way below your status. Humility is the true measure of success. I may sound self righteous here but that’s how I see it…what Boyet Fajardo did to that employee in Duty Free is an eye opener. No wonder the country is continuously run by corrupt officials. Our race is used to intimidation. Our poverty defines the whole of our existence, and we permit it to disfigure whatever respect and dignity is left from that morals and values that this corrupted country still have.

There are more Boyet Fajardos out there. To US who may be ‘nobodys’ and ‘no-names’, we may not have enough wealth but we must safeguard our ideals. Put a stop to this kind of abuse, we are worth something and we deserve more. Stop intimidation…the TIME FOR CHANGE IS NOW!!!...

SAY NO TO INTIMIDATION…that’s a good start to set the gears towards liberating these spoiled, corrupt, classy but rotten assholes!!!

Mother and Son time by the Beach

I woke up early this morning, grabbed a cup of joe and went to the beach with my son. Boy, the beach was so peaceful, there were already a few early joggers and elderly who are breathing in the fresh sea breeze when we came to the shore.

NJ took advantage of the cool rippling waters, which were surprisingly clear from the garbage that used to be a common eye sore during these times because of the growing community of squatters living by the shore. He had seen the early batches of passengers riding the motor boat going to and from the port. He had seen a fisherman trying out his luck fishing a bit late in daylight.

Boy this day is so peaceful, the scene of my son playing by the shore donning his swimming trunks and looks so happy and satisfied with his antics under and on water made me loosen up involuntarily. My 3-day headache and chronic stiff neck seemed to automatically disappear. I love mornings like these. Life seems so simple, quiet and neat. Seeing through his smiles and giggles just simplifies all the queries I have. It just convinces me that there is actually nothing to worry about, we are together and all is well.

When I get too uptight about anything, what I do is look into the eyes of my son and everything feels alright. Everything feels a little bit simpler and all my problems seem to become unnecessary. If only the adult world could be simpler as it is for the young ones. Still, I do have some growing up to do to break free from such a dreamy illusion.

PR Frenzy!

This just saves my day. I am apparently feeling ill, bearing a wrenching headache and donning a shirt that might already be stenching because of all the sweat brought by the fever chills which I survived last night… Never did I expect to get a PR rank 1, not this day. When I get too lazy updating my blog, this surely makes a great motivation to write something about my daily escapades.

Yesterday marked the end of a somewhat challenging semester. You see, in the previous semester, I have taken only 15 units which translate to five college subjects. Now, I am taking nine with a total of 27 units. This semester proved a great challenge to my time management skills since I need to earn extra bucks for sustenance and spare study time to establish ganda points in my academic life, well sort of. With God’s guidance, I have been permitted three exemptions to the final exams. So virtually, today, which is the last day of the semester, becomes the start of my summer break.

Excuse me if I sound I may sound a bit braggy to some, it’s just that I feel so relieved and satisfied of all the hard work I have gone through in finishing the semester. It was hell. However, all is worth from tough work!!! Imagine the sleepless night I have agonized on, keeping up with whatever my daily life demands. Well hell yeah, that’s worth bragging to me!!! Haha!!!

I thank everyone who spends time visiting my blog during their spare time…or even the ones who may be just curious on what I am doing here…I thank all of you for reading through my life…that somewhat make me feel alive, makes me feel like I exist…I have but a limited number of friends but I think, I can survive by just doing this blog…

Now I got to clear up my head because I have a pending article deadline. I just wanted to acknowledge this momentous period of my blogging life. A PR 1 may just me a meager account to some…but for me, it’s a BIG deal!!! Never realized I have got people reading my blogs…hahahaha!!!

Now I am sounding stupid…just wanted thank you all for coming by…and please…feel free to come by…(wink*wink*)

Should we Break Up?

This is the most tricky question. It's like asking a person about what could be winning number combination for tomorrow's lotto draw. No one can be considered an expert in answering this question. But honestly, the person asking the question probably knows the answer but simply needed reassurance of her upcoming big decision. But what if the answer was no? Then we should break up, should we not?

Most people would say "No". You should first work on your relationship. Make sure that you are still holding something there, or there must be something there. You need to answer whether or not you still have something to hold on to or some reason to stay; otherwise, please don't go through all the trouble in the first place.

Nothing good in life ever came for free, and that includes relationships. You have to work on your relationship in order for it to be worthwhile, in order for it to work. After you worked on your relationship and did everything that you can to nurture and cherish it, you can take another critical look at where you are going with it.

Perhaps one thing that should not do is this: Call up your partner and discuss your future together. Don't spring the question out of nowhere. Rather lead up to it over a few days. If you don't feel that you can talk openly to your partner like that, then there's the problem. Whatever makes a relationship without open communication lines?

First work on your relationship before making any decision about its future. That way, you can trust yourself to make the right decision

How Do You Know If Your Long Distance Partner is Worth It?

Define worth it?

What is considered "worth it" for one person may not be to another. So what exactly is worth it? In this case, what is considered "worth it" refers to the long distance relationship and everything that goes with it. It does not just involve the two person in the relationship but also their friends, family, co-workers and everybody that regularly mingle with. Most of them is probably thinking what a waste of time a long distance relationship is. But actually, deciding on a long distance relationship is deciding on different way of life. It may not be ideal but for those of us that are in it, it obviously has to be worth it to go through all the trouble.

What are your long term goals?

What are your long term goals for your relationship? Where do you think is the relationship going within the next few years? If you see a slightest hope of a happy future with it, then the relationship isn't a waste of time, you guys will find a way to make distance seem to be nonexistent, none at all. Do you see yourself getting married to this person eventually? Or should you choose not to believe in marriage, do you see this person as your life partner, with whom you want to settle down and raise a family?

If you answered yes to that question, then you have your answer. This person is your life partner, and you would be silly to let this relationship die. What if I'm uncertain or answered no?

Should we break up?

What if your answer was a clear and definite NO? What if your answer was that you're uncertain, or maybe your answer was an unconvincing no. Then the next question would be: Why are you not convinced of your relationship with this person? Whatever made you stick too long in this relationship anyway? Do you have trust issues? Do you feel unsure about your feelings towards the person at the other end of the relationship? Perhaps you don't have problems like that, but certainly are worried about your relationship as a whole.

If you're ever in doubt, have your tried asking yourself why you are in doubt. You probably have the answers but you refuse to see, to hear and comprehend whatever it is for it might equate to loss and pain. Maybe your partner has broken your trust in the past. Or maybe, just maybe, the problems are simply all in your mind and that your doubts may just be unfounded.

However, never underestimate the power of suggestion. Every day, we are bombarded by images and stories of unfaithful people in movies, on TV and in magazines. Deep down, we may know it's not really like that, but unfortunately, our logical thoughts can easily get overwhelmed.

Try posting a question about long distance relationships on any open forum. Surely, half the people will tell you it can never work. Still, when you hear that negative message, there is some part of you that can easily throw logical reasoning out of the window and take the distorted opinion of someone else as fact.

So what should you actually do when you're uncertain, or if you answered no? I think the fact that you are in a relationship with this person, only goes to show that there must be something about him or her that attracted you in the first place. And the fact that you're in a long distance relationship, probably one of the most difficult things a relationship can be in, shows me even more that you have something that you feel is worth preserving.

First take a critical look at your own situation, and then you can get to the question you wanted to ask all along: Should we break up?

A wise decision would be"Don't break up - yet"

Becoming the Big Sister

Hello guys...I am sorry I have not much interesting things to say lately. However, let me share something that I have realized today. Perhaps being the eldest in my 'academic' family has its advantages. You see, I realized that more and more of my classmates are seeking my help or asking for my opinion on a variety of topics. Since the end of the semester is two weeks from now, we are all bombarded with a lot of paper work (research paper, reaction papers and more papers). This afternoon, I got the the biggest surprise when a classmate of mine asked me for some advise on a very personal and very sensitive matter. Being a little 'bit' older than my classmates, I became used to the everyday questions thrown at me but never was I flattered until that question that kind of question was thrown at me. That made me realize that I am quite of an importance to some people. From the way they look to the assignments on certain subjects, I never realized that my opinion mattered to the people who are closely becoming the constant figures of my everyday life. No matter how I avoid getting into friendships with my 'new' friends, I can't help myself but be drawn to their immaturity because I see myself in them through my awkward, confused and emotionally struggling years. I felt very much of value of a Big Sister- respected and listened to even though I am not sure if what I am saying is absolutely right. On the outside, I may be seen as a very emotionally stable person but I also have my own personal struggles. I just can't think of a thing for them to give their trust to my words or to whatever my opinion would be while I am in constant battle with my low self-esteem.

during the past years, my experiences made me an entirely different person. With everything that I have gone through, I kind of repressed all of my bad memories as my way to survive. I even forgot when was the last time I ever cried real tears. It seems that I have lost feelings for my pains. So I realized, maybe that is what turned myself into stone. Honestly, as long as my family, especially NJ, is by my side, I can't be shattered. I just turned into a stone, lacking personal emotion. Perhaps that may be because I am real tired, physically and emotionally. I have exhausted decades-worth of emotions, pain and sufferings in just few years and so I am left with nothing today. Perhaps having the constant ability to talk as an outsider and an observer made my words that believable for some people-matter-of-factly words rather than emotion-based words...maybe that's the answer...or maybe NOT.