W-O-W!

Wow! Pure honest wow!

Not that I am bragging or anything, what I feel is just overwhelming…enough to brighten up my life ahead.

Did you even experience having something good…really great happen in your life and you can’t help but clap your hands like you are clapping for someone else? Crazy right? But that’s exactly how I feel. I can’t help but blink back the tears. I am so proud of myself. If this sounds like bragging, I really don’t care. I am just surprised for such a fortuitous discovery. I was stunned. I felt everything good. For a long time, I never felt this significant…

Last year was not the best year of my life…the worst actually…or so I thought. I simply felt rotten and hollow for the most part. So having learned that I am one of the students who are to receive the highest honor of recognition for this year’s academic achievers in my school, I could not help but give myself a good pat on the back to say, “Not bad!”

Honestly, I am close to tears right now. I just feel so blessed, it’s like I don’t deserve this honor. I never thought I can do this as this point of my life. When all I planned was to be a plain attentive student, I was surprised to discover that I can actually be something bigger and more.

Thank God for the family I have. Thank God for the friends who helped keep me sane during the past few months. More importantly, I thank God for the greatest inspiration in my life… my SON. NJ, Mama has been working so hard. This is just the start! You’ll see, I promise you will be proud of what Mama will become. This honor is for YOU. I love YOU.

Keeping Up with Life

Only one year to go and I will be marching down in that traditional graduation toga, bringing finality and conclusion to the one dream I uphold in my life. Funny, through the years of uncertainty, teenage angst and all sorts of drama, I only had one dream in my heart. That is to earn my college diploma. Funny, during my teenage years, a spell caster predicted that I would finish college… but he added that it will have to come with tremendous challenges in my life.

For the past years, I have been working in improving and straightening things in my life.For so many years, I have been taken advantage of and it left so many scars that are more than what my hands can cover. But hell, I’ll show it all. I don’t care, I’ll just go. After all, I have nothing to lose now. I will make my world and live it my way.So the saying goes, the best is yet to come… or the worst. anyway, no matter how things go bad, they can always go to worst.

What a challenge that was. But all of it is now written in the past. I am facing the future, hopeful of what I can offer. The wounds and scars of my past will all be left behind.

I have met so many friends along the way, which I am truly grateful for.

So long life. I will come and catch up … soon!

Hands Off!

Yeah that's MY man being touched by another woman. Hahaha! Sorry guys, still have this twilight hangover, I can't resist posting this yummy picture...Happy Valentine's day ladies...and MEN!

Big Hurrah!

Whatever will you do if you were given the privilege and chance to participate in the completion of a dissertation...grab it!

The trust and confidence given to YOU...to ME...is perhaps the highest form of praise to your hard work as a student, follower and dreamer of similar course.

What the heck! Grab it and celebrate your budding greatness!

Hurrah!

Being a Flirt

According to the dictionary, flirting means: being playfully romantic; something of little value or importance; speak or act in a playful or flirting way.

Did you know that flirting with people can actually be good for your health and in boosting your level of happiness?

Seems like flirting can add more to life, more than what I realize. It can ease your way to friendships, love and career. It certainly makes life pleasurable; and YOU radiant with confidence and self-respect. Well, that is if flirting is well put.

Of all the arts of life, I kind of missed out learning the art of flirting. I see it as a messy, nasty and utterly disgusting thing, that’s why. But then, if flirting is perceived as just great communication, it can be of benefit anywhere, including in that controversial arena, the workplace. So the next time you contemplate going up and introducing yourself to the person across the room, don't contemplate, just do it! And remember to carry with you a big SMILE!

Breaking Point

I just needed to escape from everything…forever. I thought, what’s the point of staying when all your hard efforts seems to be worthless and do not make a point. What’s the point of trying when nothing seems to progress. But then I thought; whatever made me bear with my life for so long. I had a purpose. I have a purpose, though I seem to have lost grip of them all and let them vanish into thin air.

The past few days weren’t the nicest or even the most glorious of my days. If only I can escape, if only I can break free from the life apart from my own. I really need to go, but I am preoccupied with things that I needed to face. And that’s what’s keeping me alive. That’s my purpose.

I need to live in the present and enjoy the time I am having, the people I have gathered and the memories I have built. I have accepted the responsibilities of whatever I have done in the past and gave up thinking of why I did it. I had my reasons, though stupid, but otherwise meaningful if not liberating. I am really slow at getting over life and moving on from the past but what I know is that these things are something that is not a part of my life anymore.

I have obligations and responsibilities that are meant to stay; they will never go away for as long as I am warm and breathing. Sometimes, I am thankful for them. Sometimes, I despise them. Honestly, I am grateful that such things are in my life, because they are the only ones that straighten me up. The only reason for me to go on. For what it’s worth, I will continue to serve them… especially now that I am nowhere near the trusting pathetic person I was once. What I see is a person in automaton, indifferent, unfeeling and hard, a person who can do everything and will not stop for anything or welcome any pity or empathy. The purpose I serve is all I care about…

oh, how I wish to feel again ...

Glitter in the Air

Have you ever fed a lover with just your haNds?
Closed your eyes And trusted, just trusted
Have you ever Thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don’t care

It’s only half past the point of No return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The tHunder before lightning
The breathe before the phrase
Have you ever felt thIs way?

Have you ever hated yourSelf for staring at the phone?
You’re whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re noT alone
Have you Ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever inviteD a stranger to come inside?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight