movie review

The movie was blah!

the other Boleyn sister...was kind of shortened...fast-paced in a poor way...but still, dear Nat was at her best...

I found in interesting how sexual torture can control a man's disposition over things that matter more than anything else.

The only thing I liked about the movie was that it has showed how a greedy family suffers, faces tragedy and becomes utterly foolish over money and power...and how karma works on selfish people...

The Other Boleyn Girl

This movie is actually based from a novel written by a British author, Philippa Gregory. What? Me? Interested in a movie depiction of a 16^th century-set novel? Haha! Noooo.

What attracted moi to this movie is its stellar cast. Once again, I had the chance to swoon over his Royal handsome-Highness, Eric Bana!!! I am definitely a fan… It’s just that I never found a more masculine picture of a man with a gritty beardy face…it’s soooo hot!!!

Anyways, I always had this lesbian crush over Natalie Portman. She is such a sweetheart. Among other young Hollywood actress, this gal has depicted the boldest and most interesting movie characters. Yet she manages to keep a low profile, making her talent do the talking. This Harvard graduate thespian is definitely the next Julia Roberts!! Though she may be struggling over her fashion choices, you can’t deny her likeness to Aubrey Hepburn.

And the boobsy Scarlett Johanson. Well, what else is there to say. Great body. Great face. Great voice? I really hate her record though. I can’t get over the nightmare of having to watch the AOL streaming of her live performance. I was really shocked. As in…whoah wuhzzz dattt!!!

Enough of the harsh talk…just watch the movie…I’ll follow this up with a review.

anxiety attacks...

"A person experiencing anxiety condition finds it difficult to control the feelings of worry and fear. The thing about people with anxiety disorder is that they actually know that what they think of feel is not real and that they are just made-up. "

Manageable symptoms are:
o Palpitations, a pounding of heart, or an accelerated heart rate
o Increased sweating
o Trembling or shaking
o Shortness of breath
o Chest pain or discomfort
o Nausea or stomach discomfort
o A feeling light-headedness, or faint
o A feeling of unreality
o Depersonalization or a feeling of being detached from oneself
o Fear of losing control or going crazy
o Fear of dying
o Numbness, or a tingling sensation
o Chills
o Feeling of impending doom

worse...

o Insomnia
o Irritability
o Inability to concentrate
o Fear of going crazy or dying
o Feeling unreal and not in control of your behavior

...just noticed that people are clinging on their toes lately... It's really difficult to thread over unpredictable waters...or maybe I'm suffering my own panic attacks...

so let's work this out people!!!

...take a moment...

....ready!

...loosen up!

...breathe in...

...

...
...LET GO!!!!

"HI...HELLO...YOU'RE GREAT!!"

I don’t know why I have this tendency of rooting for everybody else so they can make themselves feel better. I just feel that I can see beyond what these appear and act. Although I may easily notice sudden changes, good changes that is, for people wearing good clothes, cute items, and everything that is admirable, I just feel that noticing these things will help make them feel better about themselves. I disagree that what I do is flattery. Trust me; I don’t even know how to define flattery. What I see, what I observe, what I don’t like, I say. Haha! Just imagine the effort these people have made to improve themselves. Isn’t that commendable? Doesn’t that deserve any attention? Once in a while, I feel that I am making my life harmonious by learning to lessen my cynical thoughts and increasing my appreciation to every good that happens around me. After all, people are still people, depriving them of the knowledge that they are just fine and okay wouldn’t hurt me right? Besides, what I say is TRUE. I wouldn’t even comment on anything that I don’t feel or that I’m not convinced of. Why would I do that? I’m not making harmonious relationships by being a true blue PLASTIC. I feel that I may sometimes sound too self-righteous or too sure about myself by having the confidence to stand up and say that ”hey, you look good today!” or “hey, where did you get that from?” or “hey, what did you do to your hair, it’s nice!”. I hope I haven’t offended anybody by doing that. All I wanted to say is that, you simply rock! You are doing great. Thriving, confident and unique! So, regards to these people. You make make each day interesting for me.

Tag Mania

Thanks Precilla, here it goes...

Here are the rules for this one..

Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below)
Pick your month of birth.
Highlight the traits that apply to you.
Tag 12 people and let them know that know by visiting their blog and leaving a comment for them.
Let the person who tagged you know when you've done it.


THE MONTHS AND TRAITS:

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful! Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Takes high pride in oneself. Too generous and egoistic. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

(haha, this is me)
NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance (Bikol. Translation- “para-santigwar”). Can become good doctors (eek!). Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets (Fil. Translation: “chismosa”). Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient (never). Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked (translation: masama magalit) Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities (I like to think so). Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. -(TUMPAK!!)


DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Just wanted to share an exciting news.

Finally, I have enrolled myself under a college undergraduate program. Though this means tremendous adjustments in my daily routine, little sacrifices must be made to charge little by little towards reaching my ultimate goal…a college diploma. Don’t get me wrong, I have already earned 90% of the required units of my previous college course. However, I felt that I wasn’t fit and driven enough to finish the program. I feel grateful that I was given the chance to finally pursue what I really wanted to do…and that was writing.

Getting a job as a writer was one of the liberating experiences of my life. I never thought of having a career related to writing, not even in my plans. But fate led me to where I am, and I was grateful to have found were my passion lies. Getting the fundamental courses of what I professionally do today would really help me become more confident and effective in what I do. And I am thankful for the chance that I finally made time and effort to pursue what needs to be done.

It’s really difficult to come out of where you have become already comfortable. I’ve already secured a job and a relationship to make me complete. But my ambition of earning a diploma continues to haunt me. Or maybe, I just feel like education is still an unfinished business in my life. But what the heck! I am officially a student now. And that means long hours in Legazpi City and less at home…less with my growing little boy.

I am a bit worried that I might neglect my little boy. But my family (‘d grandpas and grandmas and titas) have already assured me of their assistance, if necessary. I really am lucky to have these people as my family. Always supportive. Always understanding. Anyways, I still have weekends, semestral breaks, Christmas break, vacation break, and holidays to make up, ayt?

Everything I do now is dedicated to Him. He is the force and inspiration in everything that MAMAY does. So what seems to be a problem…anxiety attacks maybe.

Moving on, I really am excited to go back to school. Learning that only 10% of the courses that I have already taken were credited, must I be disheartened? I just see it as a challenge. A fresh start where I can undo my past mistakes. So I’ll just give it a go, from start to finish. Fighting, struggling, and dreaming are the things that define life anyways.

At this point, nothing can stop a struggling, striving and thriving MAMAY anymore.

DOUBTS...

Doubts will always cripple forged relationships

Relationships that are founded on trust and desperate circumstances are often lasting. Why? Because it has endured the ultimate test of loyalty. Even tiny bit of doubt can shatter a life-long entanglement. It is an issue lurking to be uncovered when you least expect it…when your guard is all down…and when everything else seems fine. Once in a while, I always thought if I need to do things right? I may mess up in everything that I do but I must value the people who truly stood by me in all the drama of my life. But still, I try to hold on to people who, I think, have hope of reliving my trust. But why should I give a thought about that? When I am all convinced that enough was said and done…is the effort still worth such relationship? Can’t fading trust be regained? If trust is lost, can it still be regained? I can’t tell, but what I know I that it has already changed…relationships can still grow, but it will never be the same…IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME…existing fear of recurrence of the things that caused the trust to fail will hinder the roots of growing relationships to dig deeper. THIS I KNOW.

If doubt is still there, where should I go? What should I do? Where will that leave me? Is it all worth it? THAT I DON’T KNOW…YET…’till then.

The Fighter in ME

I have come this far…I’ll never back down no matter what.
I am a fighter…my scars are my armor.
My fears are my shield and my weaknesses are my guide.
I am strong enough to hurt and fight back.
I am able to harm, as much as other things/people can do to me
I am able to put scars, as my scars have defined ME.
I am shameless, bold and fierce!
I can do everything I want.
Most of all, I am whole.
From all the battles I have faced in my life…
I am whole
Forged by hatred and immortalized by love.
I am whole…
Shattered by pain yet molded by fear.
I am still alive…
I shall remain a fighter for as long as I can
I define my life…as to what I can make of it.
My life is my garden
No futile earth can put off the fire in me…
I will conquer my fears.
I will handle my conflicts.
I’ll find solutions to my problems…
And shall do away with things/people
That does not work for me.
For I have the power
Over everything else in my life
I am great
I am just fine
I am never better
For I strive for the best.
Fighter
That’s ME…