A Lesson of Respect

I am at peace. I know my place and my purpose in life. I know where life leads me and I know I will get there. My happiness, my joy, I know I deserve them all. I did not harm other people, ruin relations or bypassed any ties that resulted to everything I have. Now sometimes, people may disagree with me or disregard me, but they are part of life. Surely, people will see value in things that I have, and I respect that. I understand they may take from me, but everything that is taken always finds its way back.

In all my years, all I have learned is to give respect to earn respect, through good mature deeds. But while respect is earned, it may be given to those who needed it most. To those who are confused and uninformed, respect is given as they are yet to attain realization of facts and truths about things that relate to my life, to their lives. It is easy to throw blame and pass judgment at me, but they are meaningless to me. All I know is that people get what they deserve. So when opinions strike me or blame is thrown at me, I keep my stand. I may deserve that but I don’t pay much attention, because my respect is given to those who needed be. 

To Such a Whiny Little Pregnant Lady

I have been there...but I just realized how strong I was to not use my pregnancy to grab hold of the person I have done it with. I never did anything for anybody to take pity on me and never forced anyone to stay with me at any condition. I did not fear standing by myself... I never thought I was that confident and strong even during when my moral is kinda low...but what this woman does is L-O-W. Talk about impressions, I have peaked through the glam picture you projected and realized that you are all twisted inside and that is what makes me pity you.

Somehow, some way, I know you will be reading this because I know how your kind of mind works. You are always in doubt and in fear, which makes all your insecurities more pronounced. In a way, such manifestation will bring out all your ill attitude.And I will not take any offense from them because we both know that between us two, You are the one who is miserable... and I understand that, thanks for having better judgment.

Think about it...is this the life you want for yourself? Is this the kind of life to settle with? Now that deserves pity, isn't it?

So quit hating...you really are getting on my nerves...and I am quite sure you'll have more reasons to hate me more when I am "hulk" angry.

Nice Day

I guess I need to give myself a break. I dedicate this day for me. I have gone through a lot of stress last week. Lack of sleep, fun and company sure take toll on your buzz. After looking at how I did in my exams in school, I felt revived. Sulit na naman su tuition ko. Hahahaha! Why am I complaining anyway when the world is out there, waiting for me to come out. Maybe it’s what I need. Why do I even make myself miserable by thinking of other people’s problems, when I actually do not have any, not really! So there, I will go out and explore some possibilities. And maybe meet my darling along the way… yung ice cream ko ha? Laki na ng utang ko sayo pero yung ice cream ko muna. Enjoy your day people! I know I'll do.

No Regrets

I don’t fear losing people in my life no matter how hard I have fought for them. I don’t fear losing everything when pursuing something I believe in. I don’t fear facing an army just to get to where my heart leads me. What I fear is a life of regret that I did not do all those things, and I am stuck in the middle of somewhere with someone that I don’t love, I don’t need and I don’t want.

The ghosts may lurk inside me, but that is all they will ever be, ghosts. They will never rule my life; they will never ruin my life. For a person who has suffered much, I believe that I will have my own time to meet all my heart’s desires. For now, I am working on my resilient heart, who never forgets to remind me that life is all about taking chances. And it is not about winning all the time. It is the courage to see and face where your truth lies. And that’s what ultimately gives my heart all the happiness and freedom I can get out of life.

I have learned to love, to be loved and to let go of that love…love in its true aspects...and the pain and joys that go with it is called life. 

Making a Killing

The skin jumps opposite the impersonal convenience.

So when  you are in for the kill, focus, strategize and gather confidence in what you can do. Be fearless, be free. Explore what you can do.

Storm Attack!

ust when you though everything will be alright, things turn to worst.

...no power...no internet...no work....no life

Storm storm go away. You are no good for working writers like me.

(headache...argh!)

It's Raining

I love it when it rains. I love the cold and the sound of trickling water down the gutter. Weird enough, I like raindrops touching my palms, the cold feeling seems to calm the nerves inside. El niño has finally ended, now come the rainy days. Something tells me, it’s a good start to do something new with my life … something I have never done before … maybe like learning the art of flirting … and somebody’s smiling.

Thank YOU for Loving ME

I don't know what you saw in me ...........    I might have dazzled you with my ............................

................................................WITS!

Thank you for coming into my Life

It's a Bitch to Grow Up

I actually borrowed this title from an Alanis Morissette song. Boy if I can only meet this fine artist, I would hold her hand and thank her for every song that she made. They really helped me straighten up my life and move on from all the dark chapters of the love that I had.

“I’ve spent my life hovering above bottom

Thinking I can’t survive what’s below”

Below…low points…I have been there and those times were nasty.

“…and there was no other direction to go…”

In every decision we make, we tend to get a feeling of whether it is wrong or right before everything goes for the better…or worst. If it sends you to a better place, then you must have done something good. But if it is sending you downhill and it feels that you can’t escape, you got no choice but hold on and brace yourself for all the consequences that you have to face… and even if you try your mightiest to escape, all the more that these problem and consequences stick around and bother you, unfinished businesses, keeping you from moving forward with your life… And at that same point, through all your uncertainties, pain, remorse, regret and efforts to change, you will realize that you actually have a lot more to learn…It is at that point that you start to really GROW UP.

“I feel done, I feel raked over coals, and all that remains is the case…that it’s a bitch to grow.”

It’s ironic right? Had you known what’s gonna be the ending of your conquests, would you have done it regardless of the future?

whining about struggling

Sometimes, I have a gut feeling that I am letting myself miss so many things because I am always this person who deals with responsibilities and obligations first. Sometimes, I ponder on whether or not I must also allot time to enjoy time with friends or spend idle times doing stupid things, doing nothing, but I always end up feeling guilty and thinking of the things I should have done during those times…because that’s what a responsible person should do. Sometimes, I think I am taking my being “responsible” a little too seriously. I know I have a lot of things to do but I get it that my life isn’t just about doing responsible and mature things. I am also entitled to make my own mistakes. So whenever I am out to have fun, I forget all control and just lose myself to the moment, which is really stupid. But hey, I am entitled to my dose of stupidity once in a while.

 I just want to feel alive. I want to become the person who is not afraid to do things on my own and to love despite of and regardless of. I want to be able to do things my way, where I will only answer to my own decisions and not make them just to be approved of or please other people. I want to be fearless in embracing life, its flaws and all. I want to be fun. I really need some ME time….bad!