Now's the time

For so long, I have been relying on other people to tell me how to fix my life. I have been waiting on that one person to complete me and give me the reassurance I needed to straighten up my life. I thought I can rely on people, I thought I needed to be taken cared for. But now I realized that I have been doing all those things for other people but myself. I am left hanging, waiting and postponing things in my own life, and for what? It is time to make up my own mind. It is time to do things my way. It is time to for me to hold on to my own steering wheel and lead the way. I can do this, I know I can. I am capable, I am strong and I can do it. Just a few months more, I will sure do it this time. I want my son to be proud of me and I will never disappoint him, not this time.

Thank You

"Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s."


I thank the one person who taught me this important lesson about life. No matter how much you have hurt me, I can't explain why the hate easily goes away. Maybe because I still love you, but not the same way as when we were together. You taught me painfully, you taught me hard and you taught me well. For that, I am honestly thankful because without that, I will never get to become the person I am now. and I like ME now.

Once you love a person, you share your life with him. And when what you had was real, the love never goes away, it stays. Love changes people in so many ways. But though love hurts and easily harbors hate, love finds a way for forgiveness. It comes with hope that though it failed to bind us, I am capable of honestly hoping for your happiness. Because no matter how I try to erase you, you had your spot and it will always be your spot, that I realize now. But though love stays, it is never a guarantee for forever. People change and no matter how you control that, it happens.

Thank you for teaching me so much. I will carry on with my life remembering you as the brutal teacher I never had, the one person that really served me good no matter how this idea seems stupid or irrational. But that is life. If you did not do what you did to me, I will never realize that I am surrounded by these people who truly love me. That I am capable of being loved with no condition. I thank you for helping me find the way to a new love, that I might live by for all my years, for all my life...and of course, I hope I have left you with something to help you get through with your life.

My sincerest thanks to YOU.

You are not Alone

Many times, people suffer in silence, tucked away in a corner of solitude. They wallow into their own issues and problems, trying to find solutions that would prevent the worst to come. Many times, people think the worst could happen, entertaining pessimism, which cultivate depression, frustrations and disappointments and cloud their better judgment. They think they were the only ones suffering as they are.

Then suddenly, when reality kicks in, clarity will be upon their shoulders. When people suffer together, there forms an inexplicable bond that gathers them together in suffering, in pain and through adversities. Many times, you thought you were the only one suffering, but that was before you turned to your neighbors, to your brothers and to your sisters.

People suffer together. We all have our own problems. But to the billions of people living in this world, there are several dozens and hundreds that are dealing with the same problems you have. There are dozens and hundreds of people feeling the same pain, enduring the same trials and hating the ones who’ve wronged them.

The thing is, we are not alone. No matter how hard life becomes, we are never alone. People suffer together, become happy together as they live in the same world where we all exist. So hang in there, you are not alone. You’ve got dozens and hundreds of people suffering and fighting the same battles you have, hating the same kind of people you hate and changing the same mistakes that you also made.

Settling

“Up in the air” with George Clooney and that girl in twilight is really a good movie. It opened up my eyes on things especially about relationships. I just realized that when you are all grown up, it seems harder to commit. The dating thing becomes more fun when you are older, definitely, but the committing part seems to be really difficult if not impossible. The more experiences you get, the more anxious you become of commitment, the more reasons you get not to commit. And by the time you get to your senses, it would be sad to realize that you ended up “settling” for what’s there.

Even when it comes to careers, younger ones are mostly ideal. They usually are too eager, too diligent and too creative. But most of them lack experience and cannot even define what their jobs are for. All they see is the chase to being on top of the ladder the fastest. On the other side, the older ones settle back and leave the young “raptors” to go crazy at their chase. The thing is that young “raptors” tend to be easily disappointed and frustrated as they are bound to realize that the reality of life, career and love weren’t even close to what they thought or hoped for.

Like love. Live jobs. Like careers. At some time. At some point. All that is left is what we settle for.

What is Up?

People are having their day today. They are feisty as they are easily irritated. Tempers are so volatile and I get to feel what members of the bomb squad feels when they are to detonate a bomb. It’s a hit or miss game. So here I am in my ‘happy place’ doing the thing I always do when pressure and situations are in their all time high. I don’t need all these pressure. Just keep cool Wendy. Keep cool! You’ll be of no use if you join the temper party you know.