Resolutions

Last year was all about hopes, dreams, working my attribution to people who did not own up to me, and caring for other people that turned out to have no care for me at all. Though I have lost some who are unworthy of mere attention, I have gained a lot of friends that made each second of the day worthwhile. Though I may have lost some battles at times, I have won more of what I need as I realized that there is more to my life. This year, I am promising to live my life for myself. No more Miss Nice-Lady. No more Miss Kind and Stupid. It’s time to toughen up because I am coming close to completing some of the items in my life’s checklist, and I plan to add more.

No battle in life would I fear. This is my ode to this year; this would be ‘my time’. This is the time to redeem myself and by God I will see to everything that needs to fit. No more Miss Weakling, No more Miss Trusting. It’s time to stop dreaming and get on with the dirty work of breaking ground for new hopes and dreams, a life I almost lost view of having.

The year of the Tiger, the year for new visions, new conquests and more...

Quit asking Please

I always resented the instances where I am put in the position where I am compelled to explain myself. It wasn't my fault. I don't have to explain anything to anybody. If I don't want to do things, it's just that I don't want to...period. I don't want to be constantly bugged when I already said NO. When the reasons to my actions are already obvious, why should they still ask why do I act in such a way that is called for? why do they ask every change I make? Are they thinking that I am just saying No because I feel like it? argh! Well, that's just how everything's gonna be from now on.

I CAN'T BE THERE BECAUSE I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE ANYMORE. IT'S NOT MY PLACE ANYMORE. THEY ALLOWED SOME STUPID COW TO TAKE THAT FROM ME SO WHY STILL ASK HUH?

I am stripped of that privilege already, which pains me of course.

I regret having to say no to people whom I come to respect and love. But their relation to you-know-who makes me tremble in anger. Did they do anything? NO

So quit asking...please.

Twi-Fan

Just got a movie marathon treat last night. My boy and I enjoyed twilight saga 1 and 2 and I just slept with a smile on my face, I am definitely team Jacob. It just makes me feel normal and less of a selfless idiot that I was once. Like Jacob, I was there when all the trouble was around. I was there when everything seems hopeless and bleak; I was there cleaning up the mess. But when everything else was fixed and in order, I was left like a doormat. But Jacob does it with enthusiasm; I did it because of need. Maybe it isn’t love after all. Maybe it’s all about how I was raised to deal and face obligations and responsibilities.

On the other hand, Edward, "the one"...I don't know if he is just too selfish to think of his own convictions as he acts on them without even thinking on how it will hurt or ruin Bella. He seems to think of himself as "Mr. know-it-all" when he actually is not. While he says that he loves Bella, he seem to be that one person who have hurt her the most. It's funny, but love is not supposed to be that way right? But what I figured out is that when you love a person, you seem to give him all the access and all the power to give you the greatest hurt you can ever imagine. You simply give that person the power to 'make' you or 'break' you. Maybe that explains why people that love, real love that is, is all about sacrifices and enduring of all the hurt and difficulties come for all will be rewarded in time...but rewards in this matter is not guaranteed. Love does not guarantee anything, so the saying goes that love is a gamble.

Sometimes, I find it surprising that watching romantic movies like twilight make me reflect deep within myself. I sometimes find myself finding worthy explanations about certain things in life through movies. That is why if there ever was an addiction on watching movies, I will never dream of being cured from it. That is one guilty pleasure that I will never dare give up, not yet.

Home Project

Right before Christmas, my sister coaxed me to repaint our room...red! I was not so convinced with the color because I was thinking it might turn out like a 'fast-food' wall. As we grew tired of our orange palette, she thought of painting the walls red. You see, my sister just came back home and she is staying with us. We are practically room mates and so it was like high school once again. Being her persuasive self, she convinced me to step on the ladder and do one wall, and boy that was tough.

I now have a newfound respect to home painters and builders, the job was tough and back breaking. The muscles on my arms were tingling after finishing the entire wall and cabinets. But after seeing the results, I have realized that my sister really has a great vision. The red in our wall made our room kind of more chic and inviting. So after a tough day at school and long working hours as night, I will come to this beautiful room that resulted from both our handiwork.

Way to go sis! way to go ME!
writer, blogger, student, mother and ... home painter! hahahaha! Now I've got a new skill to boot.

People

I know it’s crazy but is it possible to like and hate a person at the same time? I mean at the same level? You see, this one person, I really like how he deals with people. I like how he talks … pretty much every conversation I had with him is interesting and memorable. I can run a list of quotes. I like how he conducts himself for I have been with him in events where you will be tested of your patience and tolerance of factors like hot rooms, crowded spaces, plenty of people chattering nonsense and pretty much drunken creatures. Everything was okay until he showed his ‘rough edges’. For the big part, I liked the naughtiness in it but I was kind of scared because it might just be a door to plenty more surprises that he chose not to display. But then, I like to discover more of that. It’s really fun to observe people. I will make this my mission these coming days and boy I will brace myself to whatever I might discover. After all, we can always be just ‘friends’.

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I know the picture has no relation with this post, but I find it interesting as this one creature I was talking about. LOL!

Canvas

I have read somewhere that life is a blank canvas. You draw its outline; dictate its theme and your decisions furnish it with the style and touches that will define its entirety. I would like to think that I am doing fine with all my decisions. After all, I am in a much better place than I was before. I am thankful for having survived the storm. Though the road was rough and ragged, leaving be worn, shattered and hateful about everything, I overcame my issues because I have realized that happiness and peace is a decision. So I have decided to be done with all the drama. I have decided to be at peace and leave the truth to run its course. Karma has not failed me for I was in a better place, while the other parties are left in the dark, unaware and confused of the implications of their acts, while I end up polished, stronger and much aware of what I can make out of my life. I am but halfway completing the outline of my life. Soon, I will start working on the palette that will bring color and life to its spaces.

What is Love...Now?

Love could be the most impossible feeling. It describes the most irrational emotion that cripples all the logic that you hold to explain your life. While it sometimes drive you to go against morality, it is sometimes decided upon, based on your feeling of need.

Love is every person’s need. Love, which is often mistaken for physical attachments as lust or need to be touched, is often a brand taken to make that step that goes against everything you believe is right and against everything that was once most important in your life in hope of finding solace for loneliness, for need or simply, for love.

Love is sometimes lost at some point in your life, either by choice or by chance. I do believe that even when love is lost, it still manages to stick around, it stays.

But what if a love that was true was betrayed? From what I know and what I have experienced, a love that is betrayed comes with deathly pain. It brings the most excruciating pain, both physically and emotionally. What’s more piercing is the thought that you were convinced that the one person who hurt you was ‘the one’, but proved to be a ‘sham’. But amidst the hate, love still remains to leave space to understand and to forgive. After all, you haven’t loved that one person without any reason at all. That reason, no matter how small and fragile it has become out of the betrayal, will find ways for forgiveness and the will to welcome another love.

Love, it comes and it goes. When love is lost, love is also gained. And once love is gained, it gives you more of what love has lost in your life. It fulfills the promise of future, a better companion, a better partner. If I am to face the question “what is love?” I’ll say it’s crazy, which makes it most beautiful.

Iron Man 2

Ready for some awesome movie trailer? Brace yourselves for Iron man 2 with the lovely ScarJo is coming to theaters soon. Watch this trailer.Enjoy!

Patron Tequila

I just happened to hear this song one afternoon in one of my jeepney rides and I was so taken because ... well, the lyrics was kind of real. Haha! Besides the profanity, I enjoyed the tune. So here is the live cover of Patron tequila by paradiso girls. hope you'll like it as much as I did! Just the kind of song I like to listen to when I am drowned with all these things I have to do ... pressure pressure and more pressure.

enjoy!

The world as is

It’s a harsh world and things are never meant to be easy. I guess I have said these words a million times. But just when you are down low and you have absolutely nothing, hardships attack you from all directions. With that, you are left battered, worn, hurt and wounded. But the thing is, you may end up slashed and bleeding but you still stand. Of all the battles, you still stand… I guess that’s what matters.

Silver Lining

Life really has its ups and downs. When you seem to get ‘down’, I mean really down, there’s no other way to go but ‘up’. Now that gives us one basic analogy of life. Let me tell you something…it happens! Feeling down? Not for long! Soon, you will see your ‘silver lining’…just as I did.

Be happy everyone! We all deserve to be. Believe it and you will live it.

Quote of the Day!

"If past behavior on someone elses part does not make sense to you, remember that is their own emotional junk and is no reflection on you."

Hi Handsome!

Hi everyone, I just went all out in fixing up my son's 'gala' outfit today. Since I got too carried away, I opted to take pictures of my handiwork. Boy I was surprised to see him working his poses...babies, they really grow up so fast...so here I am proudly presenting the 'little man' in my life!

Stuck at School

Our exam was canceled so I decided get started with work… here in school. The aircon is blasting icy cold air and everything is good. Thankfully I brought my jacket. Everything is comfortable so I decided to write and finish my daily article quota…with the quiet and all. What’s more fun? I am currently enjoying the free wifi/internet connection! Perhaps a nearby internet café have forgotten to set the restrictions on their wifi setup. So what am I to do? Make the most of these freebies. There are still more things to enjoy when you are stuck up at school. Even though I am getting too impatient to get everything done and settled with, I am surprised to still find my school life satisfying and ‘fun’.

I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh-err!

I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh-err! ha-ha-ha-ha!

This vid is really cute...just came accross this while I was doing my school research. Dara really has improved a lot...krung krung no more.