Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
Seems to me, we were meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die
We were never meant for forever, it’s a lie.
I didn't want us to burn out, so rules were never set
You came and went; I stayed with your mess
I didn't come into your life; you came to mine and for what?

So many times, you made me hate you but I dared not complain
Because I feared I would lost you if I do
You said you got the most respect for me
But why caused me tears and despair?
Still you walked away and left me wondering what made me do all that for you...

Looking at you made things easier
I know that you found another
Again, as always, I stayed with your mess
Nothing’s changed, nothing’s earned, nothing’s lost

I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
Because then I realized, all the love wasn't enough to grow fonder
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
As we take this road, somehow someone's gotta go
I want you to move on, so I'm already gone

It all started with a perfect kiss,
Even then, I felt the illusion set in
but perfect couldn't keep our love alive
You know that I loved you so, I LOVED you and I love you enough to let you go

Someone’s gotta give
Someone’s gotta go
This time, I’ll go
And who’s to give? I know…

The Blind Side

Now this is surreal! All of my favorites going on the same date! what a wonderful way to celebrate my birth date this year! Here's your first look at the newest flick of my biggest biggest hollywood idol, Sandra Bullock. Gosh! She really looks pretty in blonde! Yey! So excited~!



A poor, over-sized and under-educated teenager is recruited by a major college football program where he is groomed into an athletically and academically successful NFL prospect. Based on Michael Lewis' book, "The Blind Side: Evolution of a Game.

1...2...3! PaRtY!

Check out this new Britney song


Britney Spears - 3 Lyrics

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin’

Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it’s alright
What do you say?

Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?

Are – you in
Livin’ in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are – you in
I am countin’!

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin’

Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don’t see the harm
So are you game?

Lets’ make a team
Make ‘em say my name
Lovin’ the extreme
Now are you game?

Are – you in
Livin’ in sin is the new thing
Are – you in
I am countin’!

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I’m caught in between
Countin’
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin’ down with 3P
Everybody loves ***

What we do is innocent
Just for fun and nothin’ meant
If you don’t like the company
Let’s just do it you and me
You and me…
Or three….
Or four….
- On the floor!


Hahaha! Did you get the meaning of this new song? Interesting!

"I don't see the harm," Britney chirps. "Love in the extreme. Are you in?"

The music may help you make up your mind. It's a zippy little disco house ditty - nothing original but peppy at least and, like many of Brit's hits, maddeningly repetitive.

Me and my Son

Here's a picture of me and my son...Nah! just kidding.

I have always pictured myself walking on the street, enjoying that leisurely exercise with my son tagging along. I am one of those young mothers who just wanted to keep everything laidback and relaxed, like this picture of Angelina Jolie and Maddox Jolie-Pitt, taken today while they went grocery shopping near their home in France.

My son is everything to me, as all mothers would claim. To me, he really is. I just hope this love would not suffocate him. I would not want that...but maybe, I have to work on that right now. I tend to get really fussy with everything that concerns him. But maybe all mommies just do.

Can't Wait

jUST the kind of Birthday Gift I am looking for...Can't wait!!!

Work some more...Fix some more

No exams for me today. But for a working student like me, time ticks every second to do more work. No breaks, no ‘time to unwind’, time ticks and I have to value every second of it. I have so much pending work due to the 2 to 3-day interruption in my internet connection. Somehow, during those days, I was given more time to focus on studying and running through my lessons in school. Now that I am back online, I have to get started so I won’t have anything to be done during the weekends.

Argh! 3 semesters to go and I will be done with school. I am halfway there, which makes me more impatient.

So here’s the lesson for those who have messed up their teenage years and who made the wrong decisions during their college years…you got your entire 20s spent on making up for all those foolish things you have done. Fair enough!

I just hope to reap the fruits of my hard work in my 30s. Sigh!

Magsimula Ka

Magsimula ka, batiin ang
kay gandang umaga
Ng may ngiti sa iyong mga mata.
Sa pagkakaidlip, gumising na!
Ang buhay ay masaya.

Magsimula ka,
tuparinang pangarap mong tunay.
Habang ang lakas iyo pang taglay
Sa paghihintay, baka masanay.
Sayang naman ang buhay
mawawalan ng saysay

Iisa lang ang buhay mo,
kumilos ka, gamitin mo.
At kung may nais ang puso mo,
mangarap ka't abutin mo
Upang ito'y makamit mo
magsikap ka't simulan mo.

Magsimula ka,
pilitin ng tuklasin ang hanap
Magdanas man ng maraming hirap
Ang mithiin mo, pag naging ganap
Langit ng pagsisikap,
iyo nang malalasap.

Words to Quote

“Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like.”
- Will Smith

“Imagination is a quality given a man to compensate him for what he is not, and a sense of humour was provided to console him for what he is.”
- Oscar Wilde

“I love waking up in the morning not knowing where I'm gonna go or who I'm gonna meet. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge, and now here I am, on the grandest ship in the world, having champagne with you fine people.”
- Jack (Titanic)

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.”
- Anonymous

On Happy Endings

"I've stopped believing in happy endings. I've started believing in good days. At the end of my movie, there's honesty. There's truth. There's peace. What tomorrow will bring is still in question. There is a joy that's earned by failure or triumph. All those things add up to teach us, if we are open to it."
-DREW BARRYMORE

Though everyone might not agree, Drew is just one of the great Hollywood faces that actually have a brain. To me, she’s no plastic. She only gets dolled up when she is to promote a movie. When she is out with her friends, she is always photographed donning street fashion, which pretty much says, “To hell with what people think, I feel great!”

I really appreciate this quote from her. It’s really honest. The world has seen her stumble and go-down-spiral due to her drug addiction, but she came out beautifully as a great actress and movie producer. What the heck, she’s got all these personal problems and issues yet she is out there making romantic comedies, convincing people to put hope with love and life, ideals that she seem to be cynical about.

This is the person I should relate to. There's no point dreaming and hoping for what my happy ending would be like. All I know is that it comes with a great deal of work. If life is a book, this chapter of my life would be the "getting by" chapter...taking things slow just this time. In my own time, everything will be fine.

"...You Lack Effort"

One of my professors told me: “Wendy, they said magaling ka daw…sabi ko ewan…you lack effort kase.”

Honestly, I was not offended by the comment, but I was puzzled by what she meant. I admit that that Prof gave me my lowest grade in this semester for “Argumentation and Debate”. I was actually pissed because I really tried hard, given the time I have for studying and to comprehend all her instructions, I tried. I admit; that was not my best…because I have 8 more subjects to study right?

Every day, I have several roles to play and tasks to complete. First of all, I am single parent; I attend to my son’s needs in school, projects, tests, contributions, emergency checkups, all the works. Before I prepare my things, I have to lay down his uniform, socks, school bag, baon and the list goes on. Second, I am a daughter and a niece; I am the one who is asked to go for errands because I am the ‘able’ body in the house. Groceries, market, pension, all errand there is. I live with people ages 60 and up. I am a student; I come to class, which takes about 8 to 10 hours of my day, and fulfill all the requirements, pay my tuition fee on time, wear my uniform and ID promptly and all the works. Lastly, I work. I need to earn money to sustain my needs. I need to earn money to sustain my son’s medicines and all else that his father cannot suffice. This is all of me and that subject is just a tiny bit of my life. I do all these everyday and with all my might I do it at MY BEST because the fact that I can do them all, I made REAL EFFORT at that.

So I thought, people can easily judge people, but there is more of what they seem to be. There are underlying reasons why they act in such a manner that may not live up to your expectations or ideals. But the thing is; they put effort in life.

Here’s the thing, after a long night of completing the debate brief she gave us as a project, and missing my beauty sleep because I have a job to attend to my son who needs my attention in the morning and still have classes to go to, I get this remark…”YOU LACK EFFORT.”

Hells bells! Everyone is entitled to their opinion right?!

“It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes short again and again, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause, who at best knows achievement and who at the worst if he fails at least fails while daring greatly so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.”

Thought of Another Day

I just came across this interesting quote from a high school friend of mine and so I just wanted to share it with you.

"Everything that happens ONCE will never happen again, but everything that happens TWICE is more likely to happen AGAIN."

Hmmmm...

عيد الفطر ‘Īdu ul-Fiṭr

Eid al-Fitr marks the end of the fasting of Ramadan. This has to do with the communal aspects of the fast, which expresses many of the basic values of the Muslim community. Fasting is believed by some scholars to extol fundamental distinctions, lauding the power of the spiritual realm, while acknowledging the subordination of the physical realm.

Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiṭr means "to break fast"; and so the holiday symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period. It is celebrated after the end of the Islamic month of Ramadan, on the first day of Shawwal.

The Islamic tradition also associates events with the occasion. For example, on Eid al-Fitr, the angel Gabriel descended with white clothes for each of prophet Muhammad's grandsons.

To non-Muslim people, today is a day to break the stress, because today is an official non-working holiday. No school, but to me, it is still a work day...a mother has to earn some right. Haha! But is is a great day to bond with my son and just watch his cartoon programming. I bet we will be tuned to Playhouse Disney the whole day. and as for movies, our current pick is Pixar's "up". After having the movie seen for more than ten times, it seems to never get old. I am starting to memorize every line. LOL.

Life Starts Again

"If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again. "

stumbling at some point in life is not enough reason to be sad and lonely forever. there is always a chance to turn life around. and every time you take hold of that chance, what you don't realize is that you actually mark a new chapter in your life. every time you take a chance, you start fresh. though you may not succeed in all your attempts, you shouldn't see it as a personal failure. that is because the thing people call 'failure' is not the 'falling down' but the 'staying down'.

everyone may have heard lines like WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER DOOR OPENS. It even goes like WHEN THE DOORS CLOSE, THE WINDOWS OPEN...or something like that. but the thing is, in every door that closes, we can't help but get stuck on longingly hoping for it to open again. we tend to cast a long and regretful look on that door...that we fail to see the the ones that was opened just for us.

thought of the day

Patience...patience...patience!

"We don't need to rush things...if some things are bound to happen, it will happen no matter how we prevent it from happening...in the right time, with the right person...and for the BEST reasons."

People grow more and more impatient each day. When we can only pass through life only once, it is puzzling that people are in the habit of rushing things. They focus more on the wealth they wanted to acquire, the prestige they wanted to earn or in getting novelty objects, which do not necessarily bring essence to one's existence. They keep their eyes on the prize and not on the process of attaining that prize. But while people are kept at the 'process' for a significant portion of our lives, where we tend to suffer hardships and pain, who can can blame them of not wishing to fast forward and freeze into the time that their lives will be so much better?

Sometimes, we may even find ourselves frustrated of not getting the things we desperately wanted,"WANTED", and fail to take notice of and appreciate the things we have acquired along the way. Life has its own surprises. Sometimes, or most of the time, those things that we acquire along the way are way better and greater than the things we wanted to attain. Sometimes, the things we thought would be the best for us is not actually the 'best' that we can have.

So enjoy life and its little surprises. take things slow for everything will happen and fall into their right places at the right time and point of our lives. But for now, why don't we enjoy the ride? For when we get to our destination, we don't know if everything ends...or starts anew.

The Tunnel

Sometimes the present can become so dark as to cast a shadow. But shadows cast behind you and in front of you…it will remain and will always be part of your life. The present may be rough, hard and painful. It may probably extend to be a dark time up ahead, but I believe, this part of life is a tunnel, not a cave... There’s always a light at the end of it.

Your grief is momentary. Your pain is may be long-standing. But the thing is, it is bearable.

Right now, it's just important to surround yourself with Love, so you don't carry all the negativity on your shoulders.

Exercise a life that is separate from everything that have caused you pain. Prepare yourself to be strong enough to face the future on your own. As you work through your issues, keep looking forward. Chant encouraging words. Tell yourself that you are doing just fine and that will do much better each day.

Keep the Light On. Keep the light at the end of the tunnel…

Updates

On my post titled:

"My Last Post about this shit!!!"

I won't share more details but the thing is, I have spoken to the family of the concerned parties and that they also confirmed to me that what I claimed was actually 100% true.

When I was accused na ilusyon ko lang daw yung sinasabi ko, na mapapahiya lang daw ako kase nga di DAW totoo, then why are the family talking to me and giving out details of everything they know? Why are the people who have knowledge of the affair came straight up and confirmed what I already know? Maybe because they wanted to clear their conscience. I don't want to say, "I said so" but seems like the fate plays on my side now. Bilog talaga ang mundo.

When I thought that I am going mad of thinking that I might be missing something or throwing stones at the wrong bitches, I got confirmation...somehow, this made me believe that I still got the favor of the fates. And so I say, who's smiling now?

Lesson learned: to all the ladies who are made to believe that everything in their relationship is alright and okay, if your gut tells you that there's something wrong, THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING WRONG. What keeps you from discovering it is your fear of the realization of the reality in your relationship...or just the fault of being with an asshole who are gifted with the skill of indiscretion. Intuition, gut, kutob...whatever you call it, trust it. It is your body's way of saying that you are sensing something synergystically subliminal...meaning, something's up, good or bad.

AT SA MGA MAKAKATING KABIT, MATUTO KAYONG HUMARAP SA MGA NABIBIKTIMA NINYO. MATUTO KAYONG PUMILI DAHIL DI NINYO ALAM, BAKA PAG PUMALAG YAN, BAKA KUNG SAN KAYO PULUTIN...ANG LALAKI NINYONG DUWAG!!! PANG KANTUTAN LANG PALA TIGAS NG MGA LAMAN NINYO. YOU'RE NO BETTER THAN A PILE OF STALE CUM!! ANG BABABOY NINYO!!!

To the last breath, all I was given was denial. So here's the thing. I would pay the same 'respects' you have given me guys.





SO SMILE ALL YOU CAN...ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS...WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND...AND WHEN KARMA HITS...IT HITS H-O-M-E.

Just Rockin a Boy Look!

So...whatchuthink?

My Prayer

Dear God,

I am humbled by all the problems… I am humbled by YOUR way of teaching me how cruel life is when I reached too high, blindsided by the things I wanted and planned on my own, losing touch of the people and the things that means more in my life.

I appreciate the effort of gradually melting all the fury I keep inside me, which gave me quite an excuse to hurt the people who have hurt and ruined everything I worked so hard for. Serves them right, but to my shame, I reflected, what did that make me become? No better than those people I hated...

I appreciate YOUR way of throwing all the stones, which I have thrown them, back at me to make me realize how a self-righteous bitch I have become through all the years I so believed that I am always right.

Thanks for continuously hurting my pride to make me realize that my pride is my greatest villain. Thanks for helping me gradually lose this weakness of mine as it keeps me from facing the realities of what my life has actually become. Thanks for robbing me with all the reasons to pretend that everything is alright, when it is actually not.

I know life hurts and the road to my destiny is not supposed to be easy. I don’t promise that I will cease my complaints, but I promise to try to rise above my shame and mistakes.

When all I got is envy for people whose life went smoothly, just the way they planned, while I am left with other people’s shit to deal with, thanks for sending me a flicker of something to hold on…a flicker of hope that after all the mess, I will be living and breathing my happy ending.

It comforts me that YOU are there to guide me, to test me, to provide for me while YOUR plans continue to torment me. Have more patience in me please… I can’t be strong on my own. I can’t keep on without the courage you constantly make me realize I had, all this time.

I may be the writer of my life. I am the one who will put words for it to take shape and assume a meaningful existence. I may be the one to decide which direction and style it should fit in. But I know that even when I try the hardest to polish and edit my work, YOU are still the toughest of the toughest editors I will ever encounter…that after YOU, I know facing all other stories to embrace will be a breeze.

‘Till you give me the green light to write my own story, I will miss all these...i figured, my life will be nothing but a snorefest. So I plead, continue doing what YOU are doing. I don’t care if you thrash all of my hard work. Feel free to draw red lines to the words, phrases and paragraphs or even chapters that are irrelevant and unnecessary. Check the portions I have done right. Write notes of improvement in some chapters. Write “you are full of shit!” in BOLD on the portions where I make no sense at all. I welcome your call for revision, rework and reviews. But please…all I ask is for YOU to keep me on.

Please give me the strength to bear with your demands, enlighten my will to explore more ‘stories’ in my life. The decision is beyond my hands. I am but a ‘humble’ writer in your big publishing house. Whether or not I am worthy, I promise I will try my hardest to qualify because YOU can't get rid of me that EASY, and YOU know that.

So until you grew tired of me, be fed up of throwing all these drama at my direction, I will appreciate more of the challenges YOU gave me to polish all my jagged edges, while its lasts. I dream of waking up to the day…as I will end up a beauty that is far beyond my expectations. Thanks to YOU.


Your craziest fan,
Wendastarr

Life Under Construction

I have decided to start organizing my life. I have been all over the place and I am lost of excuses to justify my 'cluttered' life. Just my way of taking all things slow, simple and manageable.

It is so easy to expose yourself and share your affection to everyone, but apparently, with all that is left of me, I wanted to save space for all the people who matter in my life. Just my way of finding my own center.

I have started by organizing my friends list. Not that I am limiting myself to a number of people or being snob or whatever, I am just starting something new. I am starting something big that is beyond my hands. It is just symbolic that I wanted to start small, as it is all that I can handle.

I am fixing things, personal things that are left for time to get over with. Who knows?! After this, everything will be alright. This is my way of getting everything fresh and new and helpful. Only to those who matters. I am all to only those who matters and who made me feel I mattered in their lives.

Thanks for understanding. Thanks for the love. I appreciate everything. I will remember everything.

I am Dating My Man

After a week long drama, I thought I deserve a little break. So I decided to tag along NJ, my son, to be my date today. Day after day, I am thanking the gods because he is looking a little less and less like his father. To me, that is a comfort. Now, I see my eyes when I see him. I see my wits when he cracks his jokes. Just loving what he becomes as he grows in front of my eyes.

NJ has been the one person who has been there for me through all times, good and bad, happy and depressing. That's why I love him so much. Even though he does not understand yet,he really knows when to make me laugh. He knows just the little tricks that needed to make me crack a bit of smile.

Perhaps we will check out SM Naga if the weather clears up. If not, maybe we will hit the theaters for the movie "UP". Then we'll hit his favorite ride, the grocery trolley!!! Doing that while I complete our grocery list!

Today is an official holiday! So go on, have fun with your favorite people. Go to your special place. Ours is the corner where battery cars and musical animals roam around at the Metro mall. I even take the ride with him, making me look silly, but happy. So go on and have a fun day! I know we'll do.

Dear Friend

Hey friend,

Thanks for letting me crash your place last night. I really enjoyed the party...most of all your hospitality. Thanks you for giving up your comfort to gave way to mine. Thank you for giving up your 'date', to spend crazy time with me.

I look forward to more 'crash' times.

Thanks friend!

Luvyah,

Wendy

My First

For as long as I have known myself, I realized that I am gifted with gab, but that kind of 'gab' that is exclusive to friends and family. If 'gab' is put into writing, that should definitely count as one of my assets. I was never a 'host' material. I have always worked behind the scene. Even with my school plays in high school, I was just the director, the writer, the story feeder. I was never out there for execution. I was more into making sure that the 'execution' meet my material's expectations.

So when I was asked to play emcee for a special occasion in our school, I thought, well, I can do it but I needed to have some moral and confidence boost. My personal life didn't help much. Thanks to my seedy resourcefulness. I told you, I never was someone who was up there doing the gabfest. But then, I decided to take on the challenge.

So there I was, holding the mic and wearing my salmon dress. I was never comfortable about my self being exposed right there, to add to that, never did I ever been comfortable in real girl's clothes. Thanks to my partner, I kept at my toes through the night. I thank him for standing beside me as it was really nervewracking. But I did it. Even when my moral is low and my confidence severed, I did it. Which makes me wonder, what can't I ever NOT DO now?

What I am trying to say is that even when everything has crumbled, I realized that it takes sheer courage to stand above the shame and the feeling of turmoil. Put a little perspective on it, step above the negativity to face all things positive. Even amidst the chaos, managing to do something constructive is a good sign. Just look at the person looking at you and rooting for you and believing that you can do great things, why ever would you not do beautifully with that confidence. I you have lost some confidence in your self, pull yourself together and take strength from the people who are right there, cheering for you, giving you a "hey, that went great. You were great!" For what reason will you ever stay low?

After that night, I celebrated with some friends and also managed to meet new ones. While I was wondering how did I ever got so lucky celebrating with some 'beautiful' people sitting at the same table with me, I even wondered how the heck did I ever got so lucky? Whatever did they see in me to make them decide I am worth their company? Maybe I still got it. Hahahahaha...I still got it!!!

So I thought, well, this is the way to move on. I still got it and BOY did I felt so
relieved and so revived with that thought in mind. I can't wait for tomorrow now. I can't wait to discover and enjoy more things that I thought I can't, but I incidentally can.

My NOW

Matters occupy space …

And you can only have space …

For those that really matters...

...my Family, my friends, my SON...



Thank you for sticking up with me during these trying times...

It'll pass, I promise.

Thanks

He who is Blithely Aware Must Not Know

People may believe what they wanted to believe. Sometimes, it becomes their way of living. The will to believe is what brings hope to life. When everything seem to have been ruined and thrashed, all they have is what they believe are the means to survive. I believe that I am a strong person. But life seems to take it as a joke sometimes. It always puts me to tests that seem to tell me, "so you think you are tough, huh?" and end up barely breathing, torn and worn out.

I am humbled by my mistakes, my careless acts and my lack of better judgment. I am impulsive, temperamental and stubborn. I may have offended people, but I am not saying sorry, because I feel no remorse from what I did. Had I felt remorse and wished that I did not do what I did, I wouldn't learn. I wouldn't know the people who even when I don't know them, really cared. Though I may say excuse to my acts, I still trust my sharp senses. What I am trying to say is that my 'toughness' gets the better of me.

I don't believe in getting hit and then you just remain quiet. I am not contributing in the simple process of exchange that way. If there's an action, there's always a reaction. Dampening the natural process would render it insignificant and futile. It loses its substance. Whoever is perfect may point fingers at me...but I but I am me. I celebrate my flaws rather than my strengths. Odd as it seems, but that is me trying or struggling to control the monster in me in hopes of gaining a little bit more maturity.

I have strange ways of coping with hurt, with pain and with almost every emotion because I feel them right to the core and bury them in my heart. That is why it's very hard to forget, perhaps my heart and soul is not gilded for that. Maybe it's for something else. Maybe it is intended to do other things. Or maybe, just maybe, it's still maturing.

I believe...I hope.

So goes the saying, don't make curses when you are angry and don't make promises when you are happy. This is so true...caught red handed...BUT WHAT I SAID STILL HOLDS TRUE.

I believe...I believe.

A Fine Definition of What a Woman is

Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.

If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.

If you bring her groceries, she will give you a meal.

If you give her a smile, she'll give her your heart.

She basically multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

SO IF YOU GIVE HER ANY CRAP, EXPECT A TON OF SHIT.

IF YOU GIVE HER REASON TO BRING HELL, EXPECT HADES VISITING.

IF YOU SAY IT'S OVER, THERE'S NO GOING BACK.

IF YOU GAVE HER A PROMISE AND BREAK IT, NOW THAT'S A TON OF TROUBLE TO LOOK OUT FOR.

IF YOU MESS HER UP, WATCH YOUR BACK

IN TIME, YOU WILL SUFFER PAYBACK.

I KNOW...I AM A WOMAN.

Disclaimer

This is my page. This is my space in the world wide web. anything I write is my own and anyone who has a problem with what I write should mind their own. Nobody teaches me what to delete or to post. Nobody is to tell me what to do with this page. Blog is blog, I meant this as an open diary. If you do not want what I am writing, you can simply turn away. As far as I know, everyone takes everything in amusement. This is me. A freak, a paranoid, crazy, whatever. You may call me everything because of what you read in this page. But this is my world. So nobody mess with my blog. Laugh if you can, read on if you can relate, be angry with my misconstrued facts, well, whoever said that all blogs are, in fact, facts. These are my thoughts, shared with my friends in this world. I SAID MY FRIENDS, PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME AND KNOW WHAT AND WHY.

That simple, read on or turn away.

MY LAST POST ABOUT THIS SHIT!!!!

Hi ANNAKIN HOMEWRECKER, I am Churva, Bakulaw’s fiancée. Well, thanks to you, that is EX fiancée now. The first moment I discovered about you two, I just kept mum about everything, because I know, like you, I am a woman and I am not to judge. Whatever the circumstance may be, I know you have reasons why you had and still have a relationship with Bakulaw. But then, you are a married woman, which makes me wonder what morals you ever live up to.

You may or may not be surprised to know what I know now. I am a smart woman and I know the way to know things and to get things done.

You know, he is all yours. No doubt about that. I bet your husband needs MORE COMPETITION. I can never trust a man who throws away everything just for a piece of ass. I truly hope your mutual decision to go to bed together and ruin all the promises you made to the people you are promised to back home, here in the Philippines, is worth it.

I just wanted you to realize the weight of your decision. More than ever, I am not mad at you for being the cause of our breakup. What I am cursing you about is ruining my son’s chance of a family. I just hope you know how painful it is to see your family crumble because some people just wanted to have their libido fixed, while you try the hardest to make everything work right. I just hope you wouldn’t experience that. Because if you do, my joy will be complete!

Produkto rin ako ng broken family, isa sa mga dahilan nun ay isang kabit. Kaya bata pa lang ako, sinumpa ko na sa mundo ang lahat ng kabit. Ngayon, patuloy akong nagiging biktima ng kabit, at ang masakit, nadamay na pati anak ko. Pati siya, nabiktima na ng MAHUSAY nyong desisyon sa buhay, MGA KABIT. DIOS NA BAHALA SA KALULUWA NINYO.

I know and I hope na worth it yung decision nyo. As far as I know, I don’t have the right to interfere. Maybe this is really your worth? I am not your friend and will never be. Enough hurt and damage have been done. You two have ruined a great part of my year because of your illicit affair. AND THAT WILL BE ENOUGH. And I don’t care if magsumbong ka man kay Bakulaw. For as long as I have known him, pag may kasalanan yan, di naman yan magsasalita about sa issue, which made it easier for me to discover the ‘thing’ about you two. IN SHORT, LAKING DUWAG NIYANG KABIT MO. KAYA MAGKABITAN KAYO, WALA NA AKONG PAKIALAM, YOU DESERVE EACH OTHER.

Right now, I have been honest with Bakulaw’s family about TRUTH behind our breakup. The wedding is off and there will never be a wedding now. Somehow, natulungan mo rin akong marealize na he is not worth it. I just wanted you to know that because of your affair, yung family ni Bakulaw, galit na sa kanya. All in exchange for the day’s worth of your garish ass.

You know what, if there's something Kabulaw is working on, it is to bring back confidence of his family in him. Thanks to YOU, this goal of his seems BLEAK. Everything was thrown away, just like that!

You really are something ANNA. You really are. Maybe you are good at something and that could be a common knowledge.

Thank you for making all these possible.

Good luck and have a nice life!!!

THANK YOU for saving years of my life realizing how much less Bakulaw is a man. thank you for keeping me from wasting more years with a Man who cannot be Man enough to even tell me the truth and who, once and for all,cannot face the consequences of his immaturity and lack of better judgment. I can’t wait any longer. What’s done is done…AND I AM DONE BIG TIME.

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