Whatta!

Sometimes... rather...most of the time, parents can be the most discriminating persons in this world. No matter what you do, it seems like they can easily pick something bad on anything that you have or do. No matter how you redeem yourself from all your past offenses, they will always pick on those and always find a way to make an argument about it. No matter how well you do, they will always find something to make you feel that it wasn't good enough. So here's a piece of my mind: I may pursue something that people may not perceive as a road to success, but whatever I do, it is I who is most pleased about it...and I am not the least bit ambitious as some people are.

I am not perfect, I get it. Whoever is anyway? I just hate it when somebody pisses on me and it burns me like hell because I cannot talk back or even defend myself. So there, enjoy tormenting me because soon, you will see the end of everything. and that is a promise.

REPERCUSSIONS

It is easy to be hard-hearted and apathetic especially to the person who caused you shame, pain and despair. It is easy to find joy in the sufferings of the ones who have done you wrong when you are still writhing in anger and bitterness. It is easy for anyone to say sorry for the things they have done, but it is hard for them to admit that even though they are sorry, they wouldn’t have done otherwise…

To the WOMAN who is now seeking my forgiveness for tearing my family apart, it is easy to find words to ask for what you need but I would not give you the liberty of not going through the repercussions of your actions. But surprisingly, I did not find joy in your anguish, satisfaction in your confusions, remorse at your "manufactured" sufferings and pity for all the crap you now have. YOU are the one who have put yourself in your position. So what do I feel? … pure ELATION.

When all the passion is gone, all that is left is the shallowness and nothingness from where you have started. In your doubts, trust is gone into the wind and all that is left is a life agonizing and worrying about the things that could have, may have, probably have and will happen. Now this circumstance is more than what I could have hoped for. So much for punishments. So much for life. So much for L O V E that you so proudly used to ruin the relationship and family I had.

Now you tell me. Now that YOU get to taste your own dose of your medicine, HOW DOES IT FEEL?

Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
Seems to me, we were meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die
We were never meant for forever, it’s a lie.
I didn't want us to burn out, so rules were never set
You came and went; I stayed with your mess
I didn't come into your life; you came to mine and for what?

So many times, you made me hate you but I dared not complain
Because I feared I would lost you if I do
You said you got the most respect for me
But why caused me tears and despair?
Still you walked away and left me wondering what made me do all that for you...

Looking at you made things easier
I know that you found another
Again, as always, I stayed with your mess
Nothing’s changed, nothing’s earned, nothing’s lost

I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
Because then I realized, all the love wasn't enough to grow fonder
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
As we take this road, somehow someone's gotta go
I want you to move on, so I'm already gone

It all started with a perfect kiss,
Even then, I felt the illusion set in
but perfect couldn't keep our love alive
You know that I loved you so, I LOVED you and I love you enough to let you go

Someone’s gotta give
Someone’s gotta go
This time, I’ll go
And who’s to give? I know…