" Best "

have you even been asked the question, what is your best?
At this point in your life, can you say when you were at your best?

My best is not amassing wealth or getting the most success among my peers and colleagues, it is the knowledge that my boss knows that I am giving my 200% in my work. My best is being recognized for what I do for I do them with all the passion in my heart. It is not the pride of posting my pictures at the backdrop of some exotic view, but my appreciation of my home, my simple domain, my simple life. My best is the acknowledgement of my teachers to all the papers I managed to pass amidst the chaos at work, at home and in my life. I feel that everyday, I am at my definition of “best”. That is because my best is not flaunting what I have, but flaunting what I don't have; my flaws and pains so people know me as a woman who lived, a woman who withstood hardships with her head held up high. After all, failure is not what people say the ‘falling’ down, but the ‘staying’ down.

End of the Semester

At last, after completing all the requirements of the first semester of this school year, I am free to do all the work I have left pending because of my exams. I never knew 5 months and 27 units can pass just like that. But then, it’s just a phase of life, difficult, challenging, brings quite a headache sometimes but it passes. It is bound to end as some time.

This semester, for me, is most challenging. Aside from being challenged by my professors, my personal life was challenged by fate. Though it is not my fault to be played with, I made sure that no one gets away with messing up my time. I know in time, everything will fall into their right places. But when I thought everything in my life was a mess, someone came and made be believe otherwise. I made friends with people I took for granted for the longest time. They were the ones who patiently made a deaf ear when I am starting with my vicious rants. They were the ones who helped me hack ___ accounts so I can find peace in running havoc to other people’s lives, ‘other people’ who made a mess out of me. I loved them dearly for helping me get through that trying portion of my semester. And after that, le wendastarr came back with a vengeance.

School and work, I’ve conquered all the drama to make it all work. This just convinced me that when I put my head into it, I can do it. 3 semesters more and I will be out of here. My son and I will be somewhere special, somewhere far from the past. Somewhere I can raise him without these people judging. Somewhere I can finally reunite with my God.

I vow to make things right. I vow to make everything right. I vow to my own happiness. I vow to be the best mom to my son… ending this semester only makes me a few steps closer to actually doing that.

Young?

" ... when you are young, you do stupid things ... you do things that you should not do... "

--- Barrack Obama

So the thing here is:

when you happened to do stupid things
and when you do things that you should not do
Does that mean you are YOUNG?
Does that mean that you are still YOUNG?

is this a valid argument?
fallacy perhaps!

Just had a Fun Party

At this point of my life, I find it comforting that I find smart conversations more titillating than any other activity in this world. It makes me play with words, and play with other people’s minds. It makes me questions everything that they believe in and their reasons for believing so. I find it a nice game. It’s a game where great minds meet. It presents a perfect opportunity to see beyond the layer of a person. That’s what makes that game more challenging. However, in this game, you have to give some to gain some. As much as you inquire on the thoughts of other people, you also have to share a piece of your own.

After having a quite fun and booze filled sem-ender party, I finally recovered. Then I recalled every little thing I did and said and seem to be proud of every one of it. I did not make a fool of anyone of myself, that’s for sure. But we all had a great time. Having fine conversations with few of the finest people I know is something I would not date pass up even if it would mean crawling through my way home. I did not exactly crawl because my oh-so good friend to me safely home. Thanks guys!

Law Abiding Citizen

This is for the folks who wanted serious action-thriller flicks. Law Abiding Citizen, which stars Jamie Fox and Gerard Butler (300), is one of the powerhouse cats movies to look out for this fall.

SYNOPSIS:

Clyde Shelton (Gerard Butler) is an upstanding family man whose wife and daughter are brutally murdered during a home invasion. When the killers are caught, Nick Rice (Jamie Foxx), a hotshot young Philadelphia prosecutor, is assigned to the case. Over his objections, Nick is forced by his boss to offer one of the suspects a light sentence in exchange for testifying against his accomplice.

Fast forward ten years. The man who got away with murder is found dead and Clyde Shelton coolly admits his guilt. Then he issues a warning to Nick: Either fix the flawed justice system that failed his family, or key players in the trial will die.

Soon Shelton follows through on his threats, orchestrating from his jail cell a string of spectacularly diabolical assassinations that can be neither predicted nor prevented. Philadelphia is gripped with fear as Shelton’s high-profile targets are slain one after another and the authorities are powerless to halt his reign of terror. Only Nick can stop the killing, and to do so he must outwit this brilliant sociopath in a harrowing contest of wills in which even the smallest misstep means death. With his own family now in Shelton’s crosshairs, Nick finds himself in a desperate race against time facing a deadly adversary who seems always to be one step ahead.

Source: imnotobsessed.com

click on this trailer...


AWESOME AYE?!

Just Another Single Parenting Dilemma

With only three exams to go, I am all ready to succumb to the fatigue that’s creeping up my spine. This semester is really tiring or trying. Enrolling 29 academics is no joke especially when you have a lot of other things to take care of. But the thing is, only three exams to go and I am done with this semester, fairly with enough honor.

This coming semester, I am planning to get a lot less load than I intend to. I realized, I am only meeting my son through Sundays. I just feel so guilty that no other person can convince him to study his lessons and at least try writing down ‘new’ letters, letters of the alphabet that is new to him, but me. Even with his teachers, he seldom tries. My dilemma is that I have school and I have my deadlines to deal with and I only have part of my Sundays with him. That is the only day that I am actually taking care of him, and still I am working during Sundays. I am all twisted inside that I can't do everything that I need to do, especially for my son. I am but only one person. It kills me that I can't do enough to make this situation work. It's just that I know what to do and how to do it, but sometimes my body exerts all its energy to exhaustion so it unfailingly gives up. And as I was thinking of how to do these and that, then I realized, what day do I set aside for taking care of ME? or even, do I take care of ME enough?

Life is really hard especially when you are a single parent. NO MONEY CAN COMPENSATE FOR THE HARDSHIPS AND THE WEIGHT OF RESPONSIBILITY THAT IS BESTOWED UPON THEM. Money is dispensable. Responsibility isn’t. You can always earn money, but when you turn back to your responsibilities, you simply lose your worth as a parent and as a person. Whatever your reason is for doing so, YOU ARE SIMPLY FULL OF SHIT!

Yes!

On my first attempt to participate in a debate...we won!

on the proposition to adopt the provisions of the Magna Carta for Students, our team managed to overwhelm our honorable competitors by... 1 percent on our average ratings.LOL!

what's fun in the activity was everything got lost in the middle of the discussion..with all the nervousness and self consciousness that's getting in the way, clouding our dispositions and command for our words, I say we pulled it off.

so what's the price of winning? EXEMPTION IN THE FINALS EXAM!

so there...I am just happy to pull this event off of my to-do list.

we were just so tired with all the research...well, should I say "I" was tired of doing all the research and in completing all the answers to our list of possible interpolation questions. Boy that's a relief!!!