Hectic Days are Here again

I know I have been quite lax with everything lately, I am just taking my time (hic!). Anyway, it is time for some serious business. My to-do list has run another mile, my pending projects are brimming and I need to get my act together. Get it together girl, get it together...wrap it up! ... and remember, reward comes to those who work like there's no tomorrow! work! work!! work!!!

W-O-R-K!!!

ONESELF

I believe that one’s healthiest relationship must be with himself. Learning to value your own values, freely love what you really love and embrace both your strengths and weaknesses are practices that can make anyone an able partner, an essence of a lasting and healthy relationship. Once a person manages this kind of relationship with himself, I believe that all his fears will be nonexistent and that whatever happens to the relationship he enters, he will have no regret because he will never come out of it broken…less hurt, less bitterness and less hassles. Ultimately, I believe this kind of personal relationship with oneself is the key to happiness. Happiness is never forced, it is shared and spread. To be happy in all facets of life, love, embrace and value one’s self first…the rest will just follow. Well this is but one random thought that crossed my mind this day. How about you?

Sink or Swim

Sometimes, it happens that I just go blank in the middle of conversations. Not that I am ignoring the people talking with me, it’s just that sometimes out of the blue, interesting thoughts and ideas cross my mind and I needed to take a mind note. Of course, I would just brush it off with “sorry, what was that again?” or “don’t mind me, go on…” 

Lately, I do get a lot of that “blank” mode. Perhaps it comes with the excitement, or rather anxiety, of finally graduating from school. I always remind myself that this is just a start because I intend be busy about many things. I guess I am just consoling myself that way, thinking of all the lost times I had in building something out of myself. But then enough of the pity party, this is my big opportunity. This is what I have long been waiting for. Gotta suck it all up and go on. 

Funny, at this point, I shouldn’t be feeling this way. It’s high school all over again. As I stop and think of plans and ideas, I do get excited I can almost taste them all. But then again, I wonder if I can ever pull it off. Then my alter ego would say, “but of course my dear, you’ve come a long way! This is just but one thing you have skipped and turned back to. ” --- then I get excited, thinking and wondering and looking forward to post-grad life all over again.

Down with Rain

Rain. Cold. Quiet. I now understand why the percentage of depression cases is higher in colder countries.

Rain. Though I like the comfort of the days when sweat doesn’t burst on my skin, rainy days seem to always give me this sinking feeling, like I feel down or something. Funny, I have been ranting and praying for rainy days for the last few months and when it came, I don’t like it anymore. Though I have thought rainy days are better, I am quite convinced that I was proven wrong.

Cold. I have been looking forward for this cold wet season. Now, I don’t like it so much.I

Quiet. When I work, I like everything to be still around me as my mind runs fast with ideas and webs words to make sensible points. But after all the task, the quiet isn’t the best company for me.

Funny, sometimes the things that I look forward to so much, the things that I wished and hoped for, the things that I staked much for, often do not meet my expectations. As I look back, my days were better with the heat and all. Sunny days may burn me down but it never made me feel down.

Bring it On 2011!

Ringing the year of the rabbit is quite exciting for me. There will be lots of exciting changes and challenges ahead so I am bracing myself to have the stamina to match whatever comes my way. After weathering storms, overcoming the odds and winning over my little battles, I no longer hold fear and uncertainty. I know what’s mine and I will get it. I don’t even need to work hard at it because I can make it happen. It’s “New Year” and it’s time to embrace a more assertive and more confident attitude…hell I can do it!!! No more fear…no more hate…just hopeful and ready! AJA!!!