Mother and I

My relationship with my mother is one that I can compare with marriage. The only difference is that with marriage, you get to choose the person you will commit your 'lifetime' with. But, if I would have to choose a mother, I honestly wouldn’t choose someone like her. 

Now my mother is far from the ideal mother that you may have in mind. She does not even meet the ‘average’ mother category, but that is not to say that she is the worst. Although she had her promiscuous years and she had done things that made her easy to hate, she is the mother that I have. Surprisingly, no matter how we disagree and fight, I honestly love my mother.

As I look back, I was equally stubborn to her as she is to my ‘advice’. I even come to the point of harming myself just so I would force her to see things my way. Through it all, she was the only one who stuck with me through everything wrong I have done. She was as messed up as I was.

Now, I had the chance to live with her again, this time that I have found my own pace and direction in life. Although the situation somehow limited my freedom to go as I please, being all grown up with my own child in tow, I decided to be with her. I know she needed me and even if she doesn’t show it, she needed my guidance. She is making a conscious effort to correct and make up for all her past mistakes and hurt caused in our family. She needed me to see how hard she is trying, and I am happy to be with her through the process.

Sometimes, my mother drives me crazy with her boisterous chatter and somehow out of this world assumptions about people and about life. It’s pretty much living with a tactless kid who is so stubborn to even listen to you. But at the end of the day, I am happy to make her feel that she is making progress, growing up while growing older, as I am happy to also learn valuable and sometimes crazy insights from her, which I will treasure for all my life. 

What it means to be One

You may have already heard this but being a mother is one full-time job that will put you through all the pains, tiredness, long standing hours, limitless worries and various ranges of emotions. It is one job that does not define any boundary, it does not say when it starts or when it ends. It just goes on and on. But while it makes you ache and hurt in places you never realized you have, it is one job that allows you to learn much, not just about the fellow and the life that you brought into the world but about the character, strength and convictions that you have built within yourself. It allows you to correct all wrong and perpetuate all things good in life. The values you hold will be exhibited in every smile, smirk, tantrum, embrace and tear that your little one will shed or cause. Given all these troubles, some may claim that being a mother is the best. Honestly, I can't say that becoming a mother is the highlight of every woman's life. For me, it simply became my life. It was what concluded everything I have learned and it is what showed me of the realities of how difficult but rewarding life can be despite and in spite of all the trials and blessings that have come my way.