I Focus on Me

I love helping out and doing things for others. I love taking care of my family. However, I need to also do things like work because nobody will provide for me and my son but myself. Hell! Enough with the distractions please! Yes, I feel guilty that I can't do all the things that must be done especially that everybody now is busy doing things, but I need to also earn a living because believe it or not, I AM EARNING A LIVING. So for today, amidst the chaos that others seem to think to be the only thing that's most important and the only thing that's happening in this world as of today, I guess I can say "I don't care!". I need to work on these backlogs and just be done with my obligations. Don't mess with me just today because I am pissed! For today, I'll be locked in my work bubble and I'll stay there until everything I need to do is done.

Excuses Excuses

In life, you may complain about simple things like the heat or lengthy commutes. You can throw a fit over things like being ignored by the server in the fast food counter, which made you wait for hours just to grab a “fast” lunch, or just being ignored period. There are times when we get so easily pissed-off  by the most trivial things… like being asked to the nth time “are you okay?” when you are obviously not so let’s get our business done with. Now I know why some people sometimes act like jerks to unknowing bystanders…a nuisance.  But what can we do? We can’t help but feel miserable at times. My reason? I am sick with flu and I can’t beg off work, school or motherhood. At 39-degrees, I still have loads of paperwork and school runs to deal with. Bearing with niceties is real challenge when your headache drives you nuts. So give this woman a break will yah? Perhaps I should wear a shirt, “Beware: Jerk on the Loose!”

Glum

I feel like crap. If only I know where I should go or what I should to brighten up my today. My mood is gloomy as the weather and my thoughts are floating in limbo. Thankfully, it is still capable of composing a blog post. Days like this make me sucker punch myself so I would get back to my productive buzz. I don’t wanna ruin today because of this occasional blues. If there is only a drug for this ‘illness’ I could have already taken it….as in right now!